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Somebody please save me from what I became
Now it comes time for me to stand as a man and not let you hurt me again. All these inner
conflictions I have are all because of you and I hope your glad. You’ve ruined my life for
all these years, but I refuse to shed anymore tears. I will not let you be the light to my
flame, to set me on fire again. I’m forced to no longer be mad at you. It has taken me a
long time to figure out that it wasn’t my fault. It wasn’t my fault you chose to walk
away, and all because of you every female I’ve had in my did the same thing you did. You
left me to a world where I got beat everyday. And it hurt so bad, I still carry those
bruises like I’m a cop with a badge. Mom, I will always love you, but you will never make
me sad. Mom I care for you so much I wish that life didn’t turn out so bad. I feel in my
heart that I can forgive you now. I forgive you for all the lies, I can forgive you for
the way you made me cry, I forgive you for touching me in that way, I can forgive you for
not being a mother to me, and I forgive you for leaving my dad with no way. I forgive you
for leaving me to get beat everyday, and now that I can forgive you, I can forget you. I
can forget the pain you’ve given me. I can forget and clean this stain off my chest. Now
that I can forget the worst, I can now become the best. I can prove at this point my life
will no longer be a mess. I wish I could see you so I can confess this and get this off
of my chest. But no longer do I desire to waste my breath. And I’m not like you, I don’t
run from my stress. My sneakers are worn out, and my legs are completely tired, and now my
body is drained, I have no more energy to hate you again. And now that your forgotten I
wish you the best in the game. I’m gonna live my life to the fullest again. Goodbye mom
and this time its forever. And now that this piece is done my inner conflictions are gone.
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Disrespectful in so many ways, times where I almost wished that they knew, so I could
prove that I was just that good. Some guy friends I would let know and we would laugh,
talking that mess, but still on guard, cause my back I felt like they would stab. “Why”,
it was probably their girl I nabbed, old nasty, low down brother, facial glare just like a
glass. Transparent to the naked eye, being so clever, being so sly, corruption of the
easiest minds, almost like leaves blowing in a trail of wind that was flowing like a vine.
All connected in some way, if they all stopped and talked I probably would of been caught,
but man at that time it was a lot of fun at least I thought. Which ends the second stage
of being misguiding.
So destructive in my mentality, using and abusing everything I could get my hands on,
from the bottom of the jar, to the top of the jar. Most nights, were blurred vision,
slurred speech, new freaks, old freaks, dumb freaks, smart freaks, maybe caught an
occasional geek freak. Selfish, overpowering, but not in the sense of taking, persuasive,
so convincing, “hell“, sometimes I believed it myself. A fresh cut mold for everyone,
liven life just having fun, unknown to anyone. Then comes along someone that knows,
immediately throwing salt in the game and letting everyone know. Backtracking and
fabricating, seeming like the easiest why out, I was open like a book, that couldn’t be
closed, extremely exposed by the lies I had told. Defensive in nature is what I turned to,
quick to blame, but sure to lose but what an opportunity for them to prove what I had
really been up to. Naturally proud and confident in swag, I tried to stand strong, but
other players stood and laughed, cause they knew I was about to crash. And crash I did,
as hard as I could fall, face first, just like belly flopping in a pool, when your not in
control, I’ve been pushed. Starting to question myself, “Am I being true”, probably not to
myself or anyone else. I’ve been crumbling inside, far from being right, I might need a
moment in time to collect my thoughts. Convinced this is the end of my misguided thoughts
and the selfish ways, in which I used to walk and talk. Just the end of another bad chapter.
Written by: thegoldenpython aka. Wilfordjy
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COME BACK
When I first meet you and took a look into your eyes, it was like destiny had pulled up
and it was time to ride. Overwhelmed by the feelings inside, but I couldn’t hide. You got
a good look into my soul and I knew you had me for I. I declined you like a credit card,
it was me being scared inside. Found out that my heart wasn’t in it and I wasn’t really
ready to ride. Then I realized that I made a grave mistake, besides feeling like all I do
is want to get back to you. Always feeling the rush of defeat not sure with no way to go.
Hoping and praying that one day you would make it back to me. Almost on the edge of losing
all hope, feeling so down and low it’s becoming torture to my soul. Everyday to come will
be the worst ones, and my life will never be the way it should have been.
I PRAY AND HOPE WITH ALL MY HEART THAT YOU WILL MAKE IT BACK TO ME, AND WHAT WE HAD WAS TRUE!
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Mind Reaper
The slumber in which you have awaken from
Has got you caught in a world snatched from beyond
Now leave your hands and your feet moving with the beat
But keep it real for the streets cause we got to eat
And draw the heat and if it’s necessary slaughter beef
Pulling teeth if you speak causing muffled speech
Now breach the gap with the gat as we counter act
Rip that right out his pocket ain’t no fear in that
Hold is voice inside his throat with a choke hold
Act bold and suffer the wrath of forty blows
Who knows where I’m going to next stay on your toes
I’m guaranteed to stop lock and trade blows
Your game will fold didn’t listen and you said so
So you boy’s geared up and started to roll
But I aim on, bang on, come meet your keeper
And like the street sweeper call me the mind reaper
Watching your body go limp as you collapse on the speaker
Got everybody in your family asking what were you thinking
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Lost in a world where--------Eventually
Something will come around and---Everything
falls into place and it-----------Come’s,
but It seems to fall in place easily, but it’s-----around
the point where it’s filling you in a-----full
understanding that you are caught in a vicious-----circle.
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My Inner Conflictions
I have been upheld in this room for many years and a lot of tears and frustration has ran
between these ears. Permanently scared and damaged by what’s in here. Took a bottle with a
cork and put all my fears in there. Hurt, pain , and anger molded itself into me. Those
feelings compounded by the demons around me. Destructed and left in this world with bars,
I’ve stalled. It’s like I’m imprisoned with no way for parole. Walking around just to trip
and fall on my face. Sometimes I look in the mirror and feel like a disgrace. Please erase
my memory because the pain is too much. I suffer from anger pains because the frustration
has crushed my mind, body, and soul. I feel as if the devil touched me himself. The blood
is starting to boil and the hurt is building up. Please let me forget it because I hate it
so much. Somebody be a friend to me and roll me a dutch. Roll it with the finest weed and
give it on up. Paralyzed and mesmerized by these thoughts in my brain. I wish someone
would come in and save me from all these things. I’ve seen too much and the fat lady
starts to sing. I’m to block her out because it’s not my time in da game. Exposed to the
worst so that’s how I run my thing. Making people walk away with the ignorance I bring.
Many people looking at me saying “ Man he’s going insane”. “ Lock , stocked, and barreled,
I’m not hanging out with him, Man! “ So crazy and deranged I’m starting to feel it’s a
shame. So ashamed of myself I don’t even deserve my own name. Such a shock to the frame
its got me running away. Like a track star burning rubber off my sneakers again. Maintain
with the principle of going insane.
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Standing Strong
Sometimes I feel like I’m walking on fire, my head is sweating, my palms are clammy, my
chest begins to pound, and my stomach is twisted in knots. I feel like I’m starting to
have no control. My mind tells me to just let it go, but my heart starts to pump the
aggravated blood through my soul. My mind begins to shout, “shake it off, shake it off”,
my lungs feel like they are inflamed and I can breathe fire. Scorched by the demons of my
past relations. I need to let them go before they kill me or hurt me anymore. I’ve tried
to organize my life to keep them away, but from day to day I don’t know when they will
come out to play. Over exerting myself just to keep them away, not really doing me any
good because just the thought of it all is killing me everyday. Now it’s time for me to
face this, cause if I don’t then they will just continue to be problems. Cause they will
just continue to build and build till I can not take it anymore. The tears begin to come
out of my eyes, the rage will begin to rise and I can feel it getting bad cause it’s
getting close to blacking out time. “Shake it off, shake it off”, there goes my mind
again. “Take a couple of deep breaths and let’s rise and shine this time.” Like a brick
wall my mind is centered this round. “You will never defeat me again”, my lungs scream out
loud. Penetrating my soul will not happen, crushing my heart is not apart of the design,
and my mind is saying “not this time.” “No running, we are going to stand strong, cause
these memories can’t break us anymore, we are to strong for this to keep crippling us”, my
mind screams at me. Holding on to all of this pain for the past doesn’t help, confront it
and let it go. You might not get the result you want but at least it’s out in the open.
Now that it’s open keep all your thoughts hopeful cause God will take care of you, and he
will always love you!!!! Just remember that no matter how bad life has been or going
there’s always something positive bound to happen. Keep standing strong!!!
Written by wilfordjy
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A MOMENT IN TIME
Many people miss the chance to discover the truth about things in their life. Then you
have those people that are born with the truth about their life, and then there are people
like me who at one point and time knew the truth and chose to stay away from it. Now as I
look back, what a stupid move on my part, and not to mention the lives I ruined with that
choice. I made a choice to be selfish and misguiding, leading to a lot of broken hearts
and empty promises. I guess you really never know what’s going until it is to late and
the mistakes have already been made. “What a life?”, is what I used to ask myself, “What
are you doing?”, was another popular one. Sometimes I didn’t know where I was going or
where I was at, lost in a world of my own, with no concern for anyone else. Growing up
took a lot, a lot of focus and determination, and that also came with a lot of pain and
sorrow. Realizing the truth about myself again took a lot out of me, and it might of
crippled me, if I wasn’t so strong. But then the question arises in my mind, was I really
that strong, if I ran for so long? Changing everything in my life to see what would work,
but nothing would work, because I wouldn’t let it work. The first stage of being selfish
has now been complete.
So where do we go from here? Learning how to fake the truth is where I went. Time after
time I lied to myself to make me feel better about what I was doing. But did I ever stop
to think of the people in my life that would be affected by this move. Becoming stand
offish, was one move, being totally engaged with myself with no care or no worries, but
little did I know that I was ruining my own life as I lived it. I used to love to disguise
my soul and mind just to fit where I was at. I was very quick thinking on my feet, no
matter where I went I could mold into whatever they wanted me to be. Almost like wearing a
cloak, and I was good at it, but for those people that thought they knew me really got the
worst end on the stick. There would be times where I would snap and fight friends and they
wouldn’t even know why I would and I would never explain it either. The second stage of
being selfish is now complete.
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To my one and only true love,
I would like to feel strongly enough to do anything for you, give my life, my love, my
heart, and my soul to you and only you. Enough to willingly give all my time, efforts,
thoughts, talents, trust, and all my prayers to you. Enough to want to protect you, care
for you, help guide you, hold you, comfort you, listen to you, and cry with you and to
you. Enough to be completely comfortable with you, act silly around you, never having to
hide anything from you, and to always be myself with you. Enough to always share my
deepest sentiments, life long dreams, future goals, most feared fears, greatest hopes, and
all worries, dedicating my entire life to being with you. Enough to want the best for you
and wishing you get granted the fulfillment of all your endeavors. Enough to keep all
promises made to you true, always pleading my loyalty and faithfulness to you. Enough to
cherish your friendship, adore your personality, respect your values, and see and except
who you are. Enough to be completely up front with you, compromise with you, do all the
things you need me to do, and ultimately sacrifice myself for you. Enough to miss you
incredibly when were apart, no matter what length of time I'll be here for you when ever
you want and regardless of the distance REMEMBER no matter what. Enough to believe in our
relationship and to stand by it through the worst of times, secure in the faith of the
strength of us being one, and I’ll never give up!! Greatly wanting to spend the rest of my
life with you, be there for you when you need or want me to, and never, ever want to leave
or live life without you. I DO LOVE YOU THAT MUCH!!
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Finally I can feel you
An unspoken bond has been formed between you an I. The collapsing of a power that’s been
established for many years. This bond has shattered any misconceptions that I’ve had
towards you. You and I will no longer let anyone hurt us again. We will stand strong and
always together, and we will never let anyone come between us. We will never fall again.
Never to be touched by anyone who intends to hurt. Open to trust again, but not for just
anyone. You are the link that I have been missing, but the funny thing about that is you
have always been there. You have just been closed off to me and now that your open, I will
never let you close again, and I will never let you fell that pain again. Opened to a
whole new world now that you are here. I fell confident and determined to make this better
for us. I feel content and joyful that I have aloud you back in to my life. I feel
overwhelmed with satisfaction now that we can begin or lives the way god intended. I am
proud to stand with you now, I so happy your finally standing. We have both laid down for
way to long, and now that we are standing let’s start to run, but not away. Let’s run
towards our problems so when can solve them. Let’s put our faith and understanding into
each other as well as or kids. Together we can survive anything he throws at us. I’m
committed to you for the rest of my life, and I will never shut you out again. You are and
always will be my everything cause I am nothing without you. You complete me in every way
and I’m giving you my word that no one will bring us down. I feel safe with you now and
I’m done not giving you the respect you deserve. I love you with all my heart, body, soul,
mind, and you are worth more then gold. And now that I have a hold, I am never letting go.
But this right here is just something to let me know that no one can love me like I love
myself!!!! Living with a split personality sometimes you just have to except it.
Written by: wilfordy
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