Standing Strong

Standing Strong Sometimes I feel like I’m walking on fire, my head is sweating, my palms are clammy, my chest begins to pound, and my stomach is twisted in knots. I feel like I’m starting to have no control. My mind tells me to just let it go, but my heart starts to pump the aggravated blood through my soul. My mind begins to shout, “shake it off, shake it off”, my lungs feel like they are inflamed and I can breathe fire. Scorched by the demons of my past relations. I need to let them go before they kill me or hurt me anymore. I’ve tried to organize my life to keep them away, but from day to day I don’t know when they will come out to play. Over exerting myself just to keep them away, not really doing me any good because just the thought of it all is killing me everyday. Now it’s time for me to face this, cause if I don’t then they will just continue to be problems. Cause they will just continue to build and build till I can not take it anymore. The tears begin to come out of my eyes, the rage will begin to rise and I can feel it getting bad cause it’s getting close to blacking out time. “Shake it off, shake it off”, there goes my mind again. “Take a couple of deep breaths and let’s rise and shine this time.” Like a brick wall my mind is centered this round. “You will never defeat me again”, my lungs scream out loud. Penetrating my soul will not happen, crushing my heart is not apart of the design, and my mind is saying “not this time.” “No running, we are going to stand strong, cause these memories can’t break us anymore, we are to strong for this to keep crippling us”, my mind screams at me. Holding on to all of this pain for the past doesn’t help, confront it and let it go. You might not get the result you want but at least it’s out in the open. Now that it’s open keep all your thoughts hopeful cause God will take care of you, and he will always love you!!!! Just remember that no matter how bad life has been or going there’s always something positive bound to happen. Keep standing strong!!! Written by wilfordjy