My Inner Conflictions Part 3

Somebody please save me from what I became Now it comes time for me to stand as a man and not let you hurt me again. All these inner conflictions I have are all because of you and I hope your glad. You’ve ruined my life for all these years, but I refuse to shed anymore tears. I will not let you be the light to my flame, to set me on fire again. I’m forced to no longer be mad at you. It has taken me a long time to figure out that it wasn’t my fault. It wasn’t my fault you chose to walk away, and all because of you every female I’ve had in my did the same thing you did. You left me to a world where I got beat everyday. And it hurt so bad, I still carry those bruises like I’m a cop with a badge. Mom, I will always love you, but you will never make me sad. Mom I care for you so much I wish that life didn’t turn out so bad. I feel in my heart that I can forgive you now. I forgive you for all the lies, I can forgive you for the way you made me cry, I forgive you for touching me in that way, I can forgive you for not being a mother to me, and I forgive you for leaving my dad with no way. I forgive you for leaving me to get beat everyday, and now that I can forgive you, I can forget you. I can forget the pain you’ve given me. I can forget and clean this stain off my chest. Now that I can forget the worst, I can now become the best. I can prove at this point my life will no longer be a mess. I wish I could see you so I can confess this and get this off of my chest. But no longer do I desire to waste my breath. And I’m not like you, I don’t run from my stress. My sneakers are worn out, and my legs are completely tired, and now my body is drained, I have no more energy to hate you again. And now that your forgotten I wish you the best in the game. I’m gonna live my life to the fullest again. Goodbye mom and this time its forever. And now that this piece is done my inner conflictions are gone.