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Kristina Wright Poem
WHEN WE FIRST MET WE WERE SO HAPPY, SO IN LOVE
AS THE DAYS GO BY AND THE TIMES CHANGE,
IT SEEMS LIKE OUR LOVE HAS TURNED TO PAIN.
THE PAIN OF NOT BEING THERE FOR ONE ANOTHER,
THE PAIN OF GROWING APART.
YOU PROMISED YOU WOULD NEVER LEAVE ME,
YET HERE YOU ARE PUSHING ME AWAY.
I KNOW YOU ARE DEALING WITH HARD TIMES RIGHT NOW,
BUT LET ME BE THERE, LET ME IN.
TO HOLD YOU, TO COMFORT YOU.
LET ME BE YOUR BACKBONE WHEN YOU FEEL YOU’VE LOST YOURS.
I WILL BE STRONG FOR YOU & BE A SHOULDER TO CRY ON,
BUT YOU HAVE TO LET ME.
YOU CAN’T KEEP PUSHING ME AWAY & EXPECT ME TO STAY.
I TOLD YOU I WOULD BE THERE TILL THE END
SO WHY WON’T YOU LET ME IN?
I CAN’T KEEP GIVING & GIVING AND GETTING NOTHING IN RETURN.
YOU HAVE MY HEART, MY SOUL,
BUT TREAT ME AS IF YOU HAVE NOTHING PRECIOUS IN YOUR HANDS.
I AM ONLY HUMAN,
I CAN ONLY DO SO MUCH.
EVERYTHING I DO, I DO FOR LOVE.
NOT TO HURT, NOT TO YURN, BUT FOR LOVE
AND STILL I GET NOTHING IN RETURN.
AFTER SO LONG A GIRL STARTS LOOSING HOPE,
STARTS LOOSING THE DESIRE TO GO ON.
YOU ONCE WERE MY DESIRE, MY HOPE.
BUT OVERTIME THAT HAS CHANGED.
YOU ONCE BROUGHT ME HAPPINESS,
BUT NOW ITS ONLY SADNESS.
SO, I PLEAD WITH YOU,
LET ME IN BEFORE IT’S TOO LATE.
Copyright © Kristina Wright | Year Posted 2010
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Never in my life would i have thought I
would see the end of my road before me.
Never would i have thought my life would
be in the hands of another person.
That they would be the one to choose
whether I live or die.
Never would I imagine everytime I close
my eyes I would see him choking the life
out of me.
But here I am living the things I never
thought I would see.
Everytime my chest burns from the cuts
he left it makes me re-live it all,
as if it was yesterday.
Will I be able to let this go?
Will I ever not have that vision in
my head?
Or will I let it torture me to the point
of no return?
At this point, I do not know.
All I know is that it is tormenting my
mind,
To where when alone all I want to do is
cry.
I just want it to go away,
to leave my mind.
So I can go about and have a normal day
in life.
No family to run too,
for all they say is "what were the
circumstances" to what i have to say...
What kind of father says that when you are
raped and almost killed?
They tell you they are there for you no
what,
but when things happen they only know how
to criticize, not comfort.
Why would anyone run to a family like that?
They wouldn't, that's why I'm in this
alone.
They will never know how hurt or scared
I am from the things that have happened.
For I would rather go through traumatic
events on my own then be hurt even more
by the ones who are supposed to comfort
and love.
I know I have made mistakes,
for i am merely human.
But I did not want or ask for these things
to happen.
I believe everything happens for a reason,
but that does not mean you still do not
need someone there to help you through it,
to help you deal.
Until the day I find someone who truly
cares, I am on my own.
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Am i destined to be miserable?
for that's all i seem to know.
I don't seem to know how to be happy anymore.
I once was happy, but that seems so long ago.
I try and try to fin happiness,
yet seem to fail at every attempt.
Is it too much to ask to be happy?
I don't think so,
So why can't I find it?
All my like I've been told I'm no good or a failure.
For now that's all i seem to feel.
Never happy, always sad, always crying.
I'm trying to let go of the past and move on,
Yet my past always seems to haunt me.
How do I let it go?
How do I move on?
I want more than anything in this world to be happy.
To enjoy life like I see others enjoying life.
Am I asking too much?
I really don't think so.
I just can't seem to move past all the hauting memories.
Childhood is something that you are supposed to enjoy.
Yet mine was not that.
Mine is something I've tried all my life to forget.
Every attempt has failed.
One more thing to be a failure at.
I strive and strive to be a better person,
to overcome my past.
But no matter how hard i try it still haunts me.
I want a normal life.
Yet it seems so far out of reach.
Destined to be in misery since I can't shed the past.
Ill keep trying till I succeed.
For despite what others may think,
I'm not a failure.
Yes I have made my share of mistakes, who hasn't?
I'm not perfect,
I'm only human.
I will keep striving to be happy,
for I will not let that dream go!
I will continue to shed my past and become the woman I know I can be.
Until then I guess I'll be in misery.
However, I will not let it get the best of me.
I refuse to let it!
So from here I continue to strive till I achieve.
One day I will be happy,
Depsite what others may think.
I will once again prove them wrong!
One day I promise you this,
I will be happy and shed the past.
This is a promise I make to the world.
I will be happy!
Yes I will!
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I don't know how else to put this
its taken me so long to do this
I'm falling asleep and I can't see straight.
My muscles feel like a melee body is curled in a u shape
I put on my best but I'm still afraid
propped by lies and promises saving my place
as life forgets maybe its time I saw the world
I'm only here for awhile but patience is not my style
and I'm so tired that I gotta go
what am I supposed to hide now
what am I supposed to do
did you really think I wouldn't see this through
tell me I should stick around for you
tell me I could have it all
I'm still to tired to care and I got to go
I'm following suit and directions I crawl up inside for protection
I'm told what to do and don't know y I'm over existing in limbo
I'm over the myths and placebos
I really don't mind if I just fade away
I'm ready to live with family
I'm ready to die in obscurity
cuz I'm so tired that I gotta go
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I miss your wisdom,
I miss how you always knew what to say and when to say it.
You were my backbone in life,
You were my everything.
You took me in when no one would.
No matter how much I let you down you always still said "I love you krissy"
I miss your touch and your looks.
I miss rubbing your feet and brushing your hair.
You always had an open ear to listen and let me vent all I needed and would say "it's going
to be ok"
I miss you calling me "your little turd"
I miss running errands for you.
All those things I took for granted.
I always said you would be here, that you would out live me!
But now you are gone, and all the things I thought were little and petty I wish I could do
over and over.
I wish I had the chance to do it all over again.
To have one more chance to show and tell you how much I love you.
But I can't and it's killing me!
I let you down so many times, when you were still here and since you have passed.
I will never get the chance to tell you how sorry I am for what I have done since you left this
world.
I just hope and pray you know that without you I would not have survived as long as I have.
To you I will always be thankful and in debt even though you are in a better place now.
You are and always will be to whom I call my mother.
I do not want to let you go!
I do not want to face the fact that you are gone.
But I have to, I have to let go of the past.
I just hope you always knew that I am a better person because of you, and when I lost you I
lost everything I was living for, I lost my mother!
I have not even began to heal from your loss, but pray God will help me stay strong and be
the woman you always said I could be.
I love and miss you granny!
In memory of Liz "granny" Dawsey
May you rest in peace!
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Why is love so complicated?
Why when you try so hard not to loose
someone you wind up being the one who
pushes them away!
Why does it have to be this way?
Why can't we show them they are all we
want for eternity?
Are we incapable of showing it?
Are we destined to be alone?
Has our past made us so scared that we
do not see what is right in front of us?
It seems as if our past has won,
never to be together as one!
Why does love have to be so complicated?
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Why does misery
Always love company?
Why is it no matter
Where you go or what you do someone trys
To bring you down
With them?
Why do we allow them too?
Why can't we just
Stand up to them and
Say stop?
Just because they
Are miserable does
Not mean we are or
That we want to be?
Why is it someone
Always brings you
Down before you can
Bring them up?
It doesn't have to
Be this way,
So why do we allow It?
Why is humankind
Less likely now to
Stand up for what
They feel, what
They believe than
Ever before?
All these questions
And more I do not
Have answers for.
So for now, all I
Can do is ask why?
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