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Jennifer Rosales Poem
I’m always second guessing
Never really knowing
If anything I’ve done or do
Are my true intentions showing
Can you tell the pain I’m in
Would you even guess
That if you asked the right question
My answer would be Yes
Would I stay or would I go
I really do not know
Do I love you, do i want you
I cannot answer this for sure
Do i speak up and let it out
Should i just play along
Act like im ok and fine
When inside it feels all wrong?
So scared to leave,
Terrified of regret
Once i go,
IF i go,
So easy to forget
Realize i settled
Im owed so much more.
That what ive taken for myself
Is what ive settled for.
What i want now is more than i can have
If only i could have it
Im driving myself mad
Never thought it possible
I never think it through
Second guessing myself is something
I always seem to do.
Copyright © Jennifer Rosales | Year Posted 2021
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Jennifer Rosales Poem
Just once I want to matter
I wonder what that’s like
To be the one prioritized
To be first in someone’s life
I want to be heard
And for my feelings to count
I want to be understood
Isn’t that what love is all about
Why do I keep choosing men that don’t seem to choose me
It’s like I’m sitting in my corner
Waiting for something that’ll never be
Did I put myself here
All alone with no comfort
From just one person that I thought mattered the most
I just want the same effort
I don’t think that’s too much to ask
But apparently it is
I think I’ve given up on love
it if it all comes down to this
Why do I let my guard down
If there’s no one there to catch me
I’m falling by myself
It’s just not meant to be
I expect too much
And I hold out for so little
I didn’t realize it until now..
That..
I can’t be the one to change them
They have to want it for “us”
So far that hasn’t happened
No wonder I don’t trust.
Am I lacking somehow
I can’t help but wonder
Is it me or them
I just feel like I’m going under
I feel like such a fool
Now I’m stuck with no where to go
I don’t even know what to do
Even though I’ve been here before
Many times over
It’s the same game
And I’m tired of playing it
I know it’s time to walk away
Copyright © Jennifer Rosales | Year Posted 2021
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