Enough

Just once I want to matter I wonder what that’s like To be the one prioritized To be first in someone’s life I want to be heard And for my feelings to count I want to be understood Isn’t that what love is all about Why do I keep choosing men that don’t seem to choose me It’s like I’m sitting in my corner Waiting for something that’ll never be Did I put myself here All alone with no comfort From just one person that I thought mattered the most I just want the same effort I don’t think that’s too much to ask But apparently it is I think I’ve given up on love it if it all comes down to this Why do I let my guard down If there’s no one there to catch me I’m falling by myself It’s just not meant to be I expect too much And I hold out for so little I didn’t realize it until now.. That.. I can’t be the one to change them They have to want it for “us” So far that hasn’t happened No wonder I don’t trust. Am I lacking somehow I can’t help but wonder Is it me or them I just feel like I’m going under I feel like such a fool Now I’m stuck with no where to go I don’t even know what to do Even though I’ve been here before Many times over It’s the same game And I’m tired of playing it I know it’s time to walk away