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Alyssa Peters Poem
My mind keeps on racing, its hard to control
Sometimes I feel empty, my heart isn't whole
I'm stuck in my head, and set in my own way
I always think I'm right, despite of what you say
I think everything's funny, but it's just how I cope
I expect too much, for the things that I hope
I have a lot of flaws, some people might hate
I need to work on myself, before it's too late
I push people away, and keep up my guard
When all they want to do is help, but I make it so hard
I treat people the same, and always think bad
That I'll always get hurt, cause of past memories that I've had
I stay in my thoughts, and stay in my head
I replay the negative that people have said
Sometimes I believe it, and shut down and cry
When I should really ignore it, and tell myself it's a lie
I look for acceptance in people who don't care
And ignore the people that love me, and always been there
I'm trying to learn, and let it all go
Instead of ignoring the signs, with things I should know
I'm better than this, but I put myself down
My once always smile has become a permanent frown
I know this isn't me, this isn't who I am,
So I'm gonna keep on trying, and just not give a damn
Copyright © Alyssa Peters | Year Posted 2020
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Alyssa Peters Poem
My mind keeps on racing, its hard to control
Sometimes I feel empty, my heart isn't whole
I'm stuck in my head, and set in my own way
I always think I'm right, despite of what you say
I think everything's funny, but it's just how I cope
I expect too much, for the things that I hope
I have a lot of flaws, some people might hate
I need to work on myself, before it's too late
I push people away, and keep up my guard
When all they want to do is help, but I make it so hard
I treat people the same, and always think bad
That I'll always get hurt, cause of past memories that I've had
I stay in my thoughts, and stay in my head
I replay the negative that people have said
Sometimes I believe it, and shut down and cry
When I should really ignore it, and tell myself it's a lie
I look for acceptance in people who don't care
And ignore the people that love me, and always been there
I'm trying to learn, and let it all go
Instead of ignoring the signs, with things I should know
I'm better than this, but I put myself down
My once always smile has become a permanent frown
I know this isn't me, this isn't who I am,
So I'm gonna keep on trying, and just not give a damn
Copyright © Alyssa Peters | Year Posted 2020
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Alyssa Peters Poem
My feelings are hard to handle, can’t keep them tucked inside
Trying to move forward and swallowing all my pride
I want to yell and scream, I need to let it out
People always judging, but really know nothing about
I always keep my guard up, I put on a pretend show,
Can’t let them see the real me, I don’t let people know
I walk around with a smile, I keep my head held high,
But when I’m all alone, I really want to cry
I hate the person I’ve become, it’s driving me insane,
I suffer with depression, I just have so much pain
I’ve tried to end my life, I must not have done it right,
All I saw was darkness, I never saw the light
I have a lot of hatred, I keep it tucked within
I resent myself as a person, everyday I live in sin
I always mess things up, I don’t know what to say,
I just want to reach a point where I can finally be okay
I never ask for help, I always assume the worst,
I always feel so empty, I think I’m truly cursed
I’m scared to show my feelings, I’m afraid of being hurt,
From all the years of torture, with my name dragged through the dirt
I try to act all goofy, always acting like a clown,
I’m scared to be myself and feel like I’m a big let down
One day I’ll put this passed me, I’ll finally be set free,
So I can finally be happy and people can see the real me
Copyright © Alyssa Peters | Year Posted 2021
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