One Day

My feelings are hard to handle, can’t keep them tucked inside Trying to move forward and swallowing all my pride I want to yell and scream, I need to let it out People always judging, but really know nothing about I always keep my guard up, I put on a pretend show, Can’t let them see the real me, I don’t let people know I walk around with a smile, I keep my head held high, But when I’m all alone, I really want to cry I hate the person I’ve become, it’s driving me insane, I suffer with depression, I just have so much pain I’ve tried to end my life, I must not have done it right, All I saw was darkness, I never saw the light I have a lot of hatred, I keep it tucked within I resent myself as a person, everyday I live in sin I always mess things up, I don’t know what to say, I just want to reach a point where I can finally be okay I never ask for help, I always assume the worst, I always feel so empty, I think I’m truly cursed I’m scared to show my feelings, I’m afraid of being hurt, From all the years of torture, with my name dragged through the dirt I try to act all goofy, always acting like a clown, I’m scared to be myself and feel like I’m a big let down One day I’ll put this passed me, I’ll finally be set free, So I can finally be happy and people can see the real me