In My Head

My mind keeps on racing, its hard to control Sometimes I feel empty, my heart isn't whole I'm stuck in my head, and set in my own way I always think I'm right, despite of what you say I think everything's funny, but it's just how I cope I expect too much, for the things that I hope I have a lot of flaws, some people might hate I need to work on myself, before it's too late I push people away, and keep up my guard When all they want to do is help, but I make it so hard I treat people the same, and always think bad That I'll always get hurt, cause of past memories that I've had I stay in my thoughts, and stay in my head I replay the negative that people have said Sometimes I believe it, and shut down and cry When I should really ignore it, and tell myself it's a lie I look for acceptance in people who don't care And ignore the people that love me, and always been there I'm trying to learn, and let it all go Instead of ignoring the signs, with things I should know I'm better than this, but I put myself down My once always smile has become a permanent frown I know this isn't me, this isn't who I am, So I'm gonna keep on trying, and just not give a damn