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Strangers With Memories

Strangers is that all we’ll ever be? At one time in my life you once meant the world to me
Our souls became one at least that is what I thought, but I see things so clearly now through all this pain that you brought
And in my heart, I honestly feel that we never really knew each other, because how could someone forget you as though you were never their lover?
How do they block it all and pretend that it never did exist? And all this time you were crying and believing that you were being missed

Being missed by someone that you never really knew, a person that you once thought meant everything to you
I guess you were just caught up in the idyllic fantasy, of love and believing that true love could be
The feelings, the emotions, all the things that you bared with your soul, knowing that you can never get back an inkling of those memories that once made you feel whole
Because all that you were to each other and all that you will ever truly be, are just two strangers with nothing but memories

Wasted time that you once believed would last for an eternity, arms that you thought could eclipse the pain but only brought more instead of relief
Kisses that you cherished that you believed meant something then, only to find out that they were only playing pretend
That they didn’t want to know you all they wanted was to lie, they chose to destroy you and laugh at the tears that you cried
They felt triumphant as though they were invincible, and you felt nothing but heartache and nothing at all anymore

Promises that were once whispered into my ear slowly turned into apologies, dreams that you were to make come true were taken away from me
Lies and deceit and words that were once said, all to mess with my heart and then leave me lying for dead
Stories that you never knew love until you looked into my eyes, was just a cover up to mask the true you, living inside
The torture that your mind was in and how you wanted what you couldn’t have, was all nothing but a game of to you to hurt me more in the end

How you didn’t want to give me false hope because you cared so much, pretending to love me and crying to me just to feel that rush
Telling me that you weren’t man enough to let me go, just one more lie to deceive me before you had to go
Looking into my eyes and the pleading with me to understand, you didn’t care that I was hurting inside you’re nothing but a cruel, heartless man
Telling me that I made you feel as though you weren’t dead inside, was nothing but an easy way to let me down while pulling the wool over my eyes

And I fell for it every, last line that you fed to me, and for years I dreamed of you and my heart beat in misery
I realize I didn’t know you, I didn’t know you at all, because I was so caught up in the magic of it all and believing you would be there to catch my fall
But you never wanted to be with me you just wanted to see if you could, play with someone’s emotions all because it made you feel good
The way that you held me in your arms and looked into my eyes, you truly are an actor as you donned your beautiful disguise

I was so naïve, and I fell for everything, the dancing in the dark and having you hold me
The look of love in your eyes, how did you fake it? I must know, I guess that you’re just that good and all that I was, was just a part of your show
The one that you laughed about as you told all your friends, how you made a stranger fall in love with you while you were only playing pretend
But see I am not the one that will sit around and feel bad for what you did to me, I’m going to move on with my life and hope that one day you see

I may have been just a stranger to you, just an unknowing victim to play, but as they say karma will come around and then you’ll have your day
Go ahead and forget me I know that you already have, you’re not worth my tears or my pain and for this clarity I am glad
I just want you to know that you missed out on loving and knowing the real me, I am a good person and would have been all that you would ever need
But go live your selfish life and forever be unhappy, because we’re just strangers, remember? You don’t know me.

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Your Secret I'll Never Tell

Rest your weary head my love and let sleep consume your soul, I promise that your secret I’ll never tell, I’ll let your heart and life remain whole
It has been fifteen years since the last time I saw your face, and after all this time would you believe I still feel the same
It’s true, the feelings are just as strong as they used to be, and it’s alright, go ahead and think to yourself that sounds so crazy
How could I still be holding a candle for someone that I haven’t seen or spoken to in years? True love works that way, you see the truth through all the tears

You loved this person and you gave them a part of you that you can never get back, and although they may only think of you as a memory, they’re what helps keep your heart intact
You survive off the memories, the love that you once shared, and eventually you make yourself move on and you put yourself out there
You never forget this person, they’ll always be a part of you, but you must go on with your life and try to be happy because you deserve that too
You should be able to feel again, to be able to see through the despair, you should be able to walk around with your held high and show someone how much that you care

Just because this person killed you emotionally and ripped apart your dreams, you must do what is best for you, by any means
You may always love them although they may never know, but you must bury those feelings deep in the darkness of your heart and never let them show
Give your love to someone else and show them the person that just wasn’t enough for the last, and try to love with all that you are and not forever live in the past
Wishing and hoping and praying for that love to again enter your life, will cause you nothing but eternal misery and so much unwanted pain and strife

It hurts that to this day your name still resounds in my head, and it kills me to know that you never returned after all the things that you once said
But my love please understand that this isn’t fair to me, I tried for years to wait for you just praying that you would one day see
That I was the one, the only one that ever mattered to you, that I was the one as you once told me could make your every dream come true
I was the one that brought you back to life and helped you find your way, I was the one that healed you when you were broken and stood beside you until that last day

You made your choice and I understood then and I gracefully bowed out, because I knew that you were doing what was best for you then and I truly get it now
Now that I have moved on with my life and I have a family of my own, I get why you couldn’t let them go, I feel it in the depths of my soul
No matter how much you love someone and no matter how much you wish that things could be, your children come first, and they should, I get it now I see
I understood then but not to the extent that I do now, there isn’t anything in this world I wouldn’t do for them, that is why I gave you an out

Maybe if things would have been different, maybe in another time, we could have lived out our lives together, but the reality is you have yours and I have mine
Love isn’t always black and white it is many shades of gray, the reality of obligations and so many obstacles in your way
Love isn’t easy, and love can be so unkind, but oh the memories that we made back then will forever be mine
I felt true love, I felt wanted like I never had before, I felt so many emotions that most people will never feel, that I can’t have anymore

But as I look back, I know that you saw the real me as I saw the real you, there was more to our story then just touches and looks, there was love like I never knew
I saw inside of you into the depths of your heart and soul, I delved into your broken, tortured mind and I helped make you whole
Maybe that was my purpose, to show you that you weren’t as broken and unlovable as you once believed, that there is a person out here who sees the real you, every broken, beautiful piece
That there is someone out here that took you as you were and wanted nothing in return, just to be in your presence, to know you, and inevitably to learn

That somewhere out there lies the other half of your soul, the half that makes your heart beat, the half that doesn’t have to use words, because the love you feel is enough and it’s what speaks
So, my love I hope that you’re happy, I pray that you have the life that you dreamed of so long ago, I hope that your days are filled with nothing but happiness that invades your soul
I hope that you never have to wonder if you’re enough, if you’re loved at all, because believe me when I say this to you, “You were my all”
So, thank you for the memories, thank you for the love that you gave, thank you for showing me the real you, and thank you for fulfilling my days

Thank you for healing me and for the way that you made me feel, thank you for showing me true love and for showing me that it is real
Thank you for your beautiful words and releasing me like a butterfly, thank you for showing me that life moves on, but that true love never dies
Thank you for your secrets that you once shared with me, the words that you once told me so long ago that I will never repeat
So yes, I will always love you and maybe we’ll meet in another time, but until that time comes around just know that you still enter my mind

Just know that I will never hurt you or bring your happiness that you have found to an end, you can rest easy for the rest of your life because my love goes with you until we meet again.

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The Angel With the Black Wings

She sits upon an old, rotted out log contemplating her strife, surrounded by the beauty of nature and the blooming of new life
And there she ponders why she has been chosen to act out this task, was it because she did an injustice and fell for one whom wore no mask?
One that accepted that she was different and not from this cruel world, one that only wanted to touch her and wanted nothing more
Is it because he could see through her disguise that she was wearing? The one they had given to her to sin, the one that would make any man crumble like a fragile piece of glass slipping through her hands

She knew that she was wrong, and she should have guarded her heart better than she did, but when he pressed his sweet lips upon hers, she finally knew how it felt to exist
To be wanted, to have a taste of love, something she never had, for she was an angel of death only acting out the darkness’ plans
But him she couldn’t hurt, she couldn’t bear to take him away, although she knew that deep down the darkness would eventually have its way
Nothing pure and good lasts forever the darkness it will not allow, and so she ponders to herself what is she to do now?

She can’t penetrate his heart in the way that they want her to, she only wants to do this through loving him, and for that they call her a fool
Believing that she could ever have a life of happiness with someone that holds a soul, for she is just an angel of death and that he didn’t know
He knew that she was different though, a little dark, she had a light within and that is what drew her to him, that, and his human need to sin
He never saw her in her true form only the beauty that she would convey, would he still love her if she opened her black wings and took his soul away?

So, she listens to the earthly noises, the leaves on the trees falling down, and she knows that she must get going, for his and her time is running out
She transforms back into the beauty with the raven black hair, and she puts away her deathly wings and pretends that she doesn’t care
But when she sees him there, he stands so beautiful, so surreal, and in her heart, she knows as hard as she tries there is no way that she can’t feel
She takes him by his hand, and she whispers into his ear so sweet, “My love I’m sorry to hurt you, please know this is killing me”

She embraces him and she kisses his sweet lips once more, and she watches in agony as his eyes question her why as she watches the teardrops pour
He falls into her arms, and she delicately lies him down, and there she gazes into his eyes until all of the life has run out
She steps away from his body as she knows the darkness is at hand, and she opens her wings and flies away because the view she just can’t stand
And then she feels something that she has never felt before, tears running down her cheeks and pain in her chest, and she knows that she will never again be the angel that she once was, not anymore.

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Charm Bracelet

I wear a charm bracelet that you once gave to me, and every charm on it holds a special memory
The very first one has my initials before I took your last name, the next is a four-leaf clover for good luck every day
I have a ruby slipper because you told me that I was your princess on earth, and one about our friendship where our love started first
A white horse representing you riding in and saving me, a half-moon that you hold the other piece

A fairy to make all my wishes come true, an angel to protect me when I’m feeling blue
A diamond ring and oh how it shines, the initial of your last name that would one day be mine
A little boy and a little girl for what our future would be, a Cinderella pumpkin for you to carry my dreams
A butterfly to symbolize the love that would one day fly away, the lonely carousel with no one left to play

A sunflower so beautiful because you said it reminded you of me, and then lastly a heart that you eventually broke when you took your love away from me.

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Break My Heart

Break my heart, here take it all, throw it against the wall and witness every bitter tear from my eyes that falls
Take this piece, the one that anticipates your call, take this one that believed in you and all your dreams, whether they were big or small
Take this piece that holds all the beautiful words that you spoke, take this piece that I gave to you through all the words that I once wrote
Take this piece, the one that holds your beautiful smile, and while you’re at it, take this one as well, that you made me feel so worthwhile

Take this piece that misses you every single, painful day, take this piece that longs to hear your voice and the sweet words that you say
Take this piece that listened as your heart spoke to mine, take this piece that is so enamored with you and wanted nothing but your time
Take this piece, the one that brought you back to life, I don’t need it anymore, I made the ultimate sacrifice
Take this piece that longs and aches for you to return, take this piece that still craves your love and yearns

Take this piece that I handed over to you so selflessly, and take this piece too, there is no longer a need for it to me
Take this piece that represents the dreams that were promised to me, take this piece that you made me feel like I was finally complete
Take this piece and remember me, remember the look of love for you in my eyes, take this piece that feels as though you did nothing to me but lie
Take this piece that wanted only you, take this piece that always knew deep down that could never be true

Take this piece and burn it because I don’t want it back, take this piece and do whatever you wish, you don’t even have to ask
Take this piece and miss me, just once the way that you said that you would, take this piece and never forget me, the way that you said you never could
Take this piece and bury it with the others as you have already done to the rest of me, take this piece and tell me again how much you wish that we could be
Take this piece and know that I would have loved you for all of time, take this piece and just once let my memory live in your mind

Take this piece and know that you broke me, there is nothing left, take this piece and please never think of me as a regret
Take this piece and go on with your life, take this piece and find the happiness that you seek in the broken corners of your mind
Take this piece and hold it in the palm of your hand, take this piece and just try to fathom what you meant to me, try to understand
Take this piece and know that my love was true, take this piece and let it fill you up inside, the way that I used to

Take this piece and just hold it for a while, take this piece and try to envision just one last time, my smile
Take this piece and know that this one still feels you within, take this piece and please just love me as you once did, make me breathe again
Take all these broken, shattered pieces and pick up the remains, and try to put them back together, show me that you’re ready for change
Take this broken heart and all the pieces scattered on the floor, and please love it as you once did, so long ago before.

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Garden of Hurt

Here I lie in your garden of hurt, surrounded by the bitter truth, that you have embedded into this dirt
The loving hands that used to tenderly brush the dirt away, now has no time to till away in this garden that he helped to create
So instead of the beautiful flowers that once resided here, that he loved to touch and smell their fragrant scent, lies nothing but weeds of forgotten days, now that he has something that is meant
See I used to be his happiness, I was his retreat, his serenity, but now I am no longer needed, I am just an annoyance, like a ragweed

So here I lie surrounded by what you used to love, and I crave and need your sustenance, just a little touch
Please won’t you cry for me and just let the tears give me the peace that I seek? I am withering away in this garden of hurt and all that I need is just a little relief
I need to be wanted, to be cared for, like you once did, I need you to show me love and nurture me, you don’t know how much I need this
But instead you chose to destroy the garden of hurt that once meant something to you, with your words of truthfulness that came out like poisonous venom from you

Why don’t you just dig me up and throw me to the side? The way that I feel you did, in my real life
You promised to place roots down in me and you wanted our love to grow, but when it all became too much like work, you decided that you must go
You couldn’t take the time, you couldn’t give me what it was that I needed from you, although what you may not understand is that I wanted nothing, I only wanted you
But that was the one thing that you were unable to give to me, and I understand why because you already had a rose garden, and you didn’t have time for the weeds.

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Why I Strayed Part 2

I never wanted there to be pain for either of us, I only wanted happiness for the rest of our days, but I understand why we couldn’t be together then, I just had so much more to say
I wanted to love you for the rest of your life and give you all of me, but time just wasn’t on our side and sadly that was the way that it had to be
I wished you happiness even though it couldn’t be with me, and I truly hope that you have found it and there is no more misery
You deserve everything that you want in this life and more, I hope that you know what a beautiful person that you are, the one that you showed me before

You changed me, and I hope that I changed you as well, you were the best thing that ever came my way, and a secret that I could never tell
I want you to know I still think of you, not a day goes by that you’re not there, and although we’re not together now, for you I will always care
No one has ever touched me so deeply in the way that you did back then, you turned my world around, but at the same time you made it spin
So, I just wanted you to know the truth after all these years, that you were the one who healed me and showed me love, and took away my tears

You gave me happiness, something that I had all but given up on having in my life, and remembering you breaks my heart a little still, but I love knowing that you’re the reason why.

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Want To Play a Game

You’re sick, demented, and twisted and you want to judge me for my sins? What about yours? The ones that lie deep within
The ones that sculpted you into the person that you are, the ones that broke your mind and left you with these scars
You came riding in on your metaphorical tricycle all masked behind a disguise, too much of a coward to show your true face, because someone may see the truth there behind your eyes
The truth that you are no better than me, you have your demons too, but you choose to play with me

Your game starts out so innocent and I am locked in a darkened room, with only the sound of your encrypted voice disguising the real you
You toy with my emotions and you bring me to the brink of insanity, and you watch me cry and scream out for someone to rescue me
Knowing good and well that there is no one that will answer my call, you have crafted your game so carefully you have nothing to fear at all
But you want to instill fear into me, and only you know the true reason behind your twisted scheme

Maybe someone once hurt you and you want to make someone else pay, maybe you’re just truly evil and to cope this is your way
You love to watch from afar because you’re not brazen enough to get close, you want to inflict pain, but only in the way that it will hurt the most
You give me choices that either way there is no right, you just love the adrenaline that you feel running through your veins as you sit back and watch the fight
The battle that is occurring inside of my own mind, questioning myself why am I being punished? What was my crime?

You ask me, “Do you want to play a game?” And do I really have a choice in the matter? You’re the one holding the reins
You go on to tell me that I am wrong for loving you, and so I must make a choice, do I live, or do I die? Without you
You know the monster that you are, and you feel that I am the same, because how could anyone love someone like you that seems to find strength in another’s pain
So, you tell me that it is time for the game to begin, that I must choose to cut out my own heart or suffer the consequences to win

You tell me that my heart must be tainted, that it must dead inside, because how could I love someone like you, it just isn’t right
You tell me that I must be defected, that there is something wrong with me, because no one has ever loved you, not truly
You hate me for making you feel, for pulling you out of the darkness in which you reside, you didn’t want to be saved from your demons, you wanted to live in your own mind
You wanted to believe them and all the lies that they told, and you despise me for showing you the light and what your future could hold

You didn’t want to see what could be if you could just learn to let go, you have been like this for so long that it has consumed your soul
And so, you choose to banish me because I am nothing like you, but a part of you believes that maybe a little bit of evil lives inside of me too
Because how can I look at you and take you for what you are? Can’t I see that you’re demented, and all wrapped up in your own scars?
So, you want me to pay the price, you want me to stop the way that I feel, you want me to cut out my heart so that the emotions will no longer be real

So that you don’t have to believe that deep down someone could accept you for you, so you choose to play this sick, twisted game, you’re doing what you think you must do
So, I sit here all alone, cold and all cried out, and I know that you can see me, and I know there must be a way out
I bargain with myself and then I try to bargain with you, but you don’t want to listen to me, you don’t want to hear the cold hard truth
You tell me that I must do as you say, although you know that in the end it will kill me either physically or emotionally, you don’t care as long as I pay

If I choose to cut out my heart with this knife that you have bestowed to me, I will surely die in this room with no one to hold me
Although you will be watching from the other side, is this really what you want? For me to end my life
Just so that you don’t have to feel? And you can go on being apathetic and cold, it isn’t fair that I must choose the fate of the story that you wrote
If I choose to walk away with my heart still intact, and tell you that I no longer love you will you actually let me take all of the words that I once spoke to you back?

Is it really that simple? Would you honestly believe that is the truth? Would you let me just walk away and not see this massacre through?
Isn’t that the true reason why I am here? You want to know that the feelings are really gone, you want to witness the tears
You believe that if I cut my heart out the feelings will die along with me, and then you can go on with your life alone and empty
I plead to you to end this, for you to stop this selfish game, I know that I could just lie and say that my feelings have changed

That I could scream out that I hate you and that through this I have clarity, I see who you really are inside, not the person here trying to haunt me
That I see that you’re pure evil and there is no good in you, and that I just want to live my life and never again think of you
And I know that most people would take the easy road, the path that lets them live, but to lie is just as bad as the crime that you believe I committed
I can’t walk away and just give up on who I know you really are, if there is a chance that you could be saved, then I want to play that part

So, I look around the room knowing you’re watching me, and I softly whisper back to you, “Do you want to play a game with me?”
At first, I hear nothing, but silence and then I hear the screeching of the tricycle begin, and here you enter the room with your Cheshire grin
You look at me with those fake eyes, all painted and scorching holes through me, and then I finally hear it, the voice that you tried to disguise when you would speak
You say to me that I am bold, that you can’t believe I have the audacity, to come back at you and try to turn the tables around for me

You tell me that you respect me, that maybe we’re not so different after all, and you choose to let me go instead of making me make that call
You unchain me and tell me that our story and the game ends here, that I am not to ever again think of you or to ever be near
I walk away and I leave with my heart still intact, knowing that what I sacrificed in that room I can never get back 
My dignity, my pride, my will to live without your love inside of me, and I know that I made the right choice when I hear you scream out from the pain of the knife entering your heart, that you pierced all because of me.

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I Want To Be Someone's First Choice

I want to be someone’s first choice not their second runner up prize, I want to be the trophy that they’re after the one they can’t look away from with their eyes
I want to stand up on that stage and wear my sash and crown, I want to be admired by you in my beautiful sequined gown
I want you to want me the way that you once did, I want to be the one that receives the roses that you give 
I want you to judge us for all that you see, and in the end, I truly hope that you will pick me

Here we stand it’s down to us two, just me and her trying to win the title of your love the one that will be with you
You look into our eyes and I think to myself this is it I can win, he told me that he loved my eyes way back when
He told me that there were no other eyes that he would ever want to look into, but then he takes his off me and starts to look at you
He places me in his arms where he said that I belonged, that he had missed me being in them so much, but I guess that he was wrong

Because now it’s your turn and his arms are wrapped around you, and it appears that you fit into them so well like they were meant for you
I silently stand there and just cringe, wondering to myself why is he doing this to me? I’m supposed to be with him
Then the questions come, and I know the answers that he seeks, I was the one that talked him back from the ledge so long ago when he was hanging on by the brink
Of his insanity when he thought he had no reason to go on, I was the one that brought him back and showed him he wasn’t alone

So, he asks but one single question as he looks at us two, and you get to respond first because he was first in love with you
He asks an honest question as he looks into your eyes, he says “Why do you love me? Tell me why”
Your response is simple, but it seems to do the trick, because when you are finished, he can barely speak
He then turns to me and he asks me the same, and in that moment, I know I am going to be forever changed

I open my mouth to give him my reply and as I do a tear starts to fall from my eye, I tell him “I love you because my heart doesn’t know how not to, is this the response that you wanted? I’m sorry but it’s the truth”
“I have loved you since I laid eyes on you since the first time, I heard your voice speak, without you in my life I am incomplete”
You stand there speechless and I can’t read you anymore, was my response enough to win? I can’t be sure
So, I wait for the ballot to be read for my fate to be sealed, and as I stand there beside of you, I think to myself this can’t be real

If I lose him again what will become of me? I can’t not be enough again, he must choose me
So, I stand there and then my name is called, is this it, am I about to win it all?
I step to the center of the stage and listen as you speak, you tell me that I played a good game but now it’s time for me to leave
I stand there speechless as I start to cry, and I walk away to congratulate her as I pass by

I tell her congratulations on your win, and I watch as you hand her the scepter and crown and think to myself, you’ll never truly have him
So, I slowly walk away as the curtain begins to fall and the noises subside, and all that I can hear is my own heart breaking and the sobs from the tears that I have cried
I stand there as you kiss my cheek and graze my hand, and I look into your eyes pleading with you to understand
That I wanted to be your first, the one you hold in your eyes, but I guess to you I’m nothing and never will be anything but the runner up prize.


This poem is from my book titled Broken Music, Silent Heart available on Amazon and Kindle. My pen name is Amanda Carroll Kinzer

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A Single, Long, Stemmed Rose

She lies upon this bed with a rose across her chest, symbolizing all that she once had and will not too soon forget
But his conscience can’t be bothered with her pain, and the tears that stain her pillow one by one they call out his name
She lies in repose of their last lover’s breath, and she clutches the rose so tightly imagining it’s his head upon her chest
She can remember the way his fingertips felt as they danced across her smooth skin, and she envisions for just a moment that they could be this way again

But in her heart, she knows he left this bed forever as she recalls when he last kissed her lips so sweet, and she holds so tightly to this memory that her heart won’t let her stop seeing in her mind on repeat
She can feel his arms around her and feel his lips upon her skin, and she lies there just waiting and wishing that it could have been 
She cries out his name into the darkened room praying that where he is he will hear her cry, but she knows that as this rose, he has left her memory to die
How could something so beautiful hold another knowing that it’s beauty will fade? But to her it will still hold its meaning long after it changes its shade

When he gave her the rose, he said he loved her so true, and she gazed into those eyes she loved and could see and feel it too
She knew they shared a love that would never be surpassed, and as she lies here all alone on this bed her heart repeatedly asks
“Why wasn’t it enough to make him stay?” “What changed his mind?” If she was all that he had ever wanted, why can’t they go back in time?
She wonders sometimes if he can still feel her that way that she can him? While he is lying beside someone else does he ever pull her close and pretend?

Or does he sleep soundly without a thought of her ever crossing his mind? To hear him tell it he moved on with his life
But here she lies as though she is strapped to this bed, clutching onto a single, long, stemmed rose with the vision of the man she will forever love in her head.