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Tamara Myles Poem
I walked down the road and through the tunnel,
To the train where we walked so many times before.
I smiled to myself remembering the past,
Then comes the sad reminder that you’re not here anymore.
I sat on the train alone this time,
Numbingly staring at where you should have taken your place.
I arrive at Flinders Station,
And start the journey of seeing the places where I should see your face.
I begin the sad and agonising journey,
Up to AC/DC Lane,
And I remember you telling me everything about it.
On your first journey over on the plane.
Through tears I take a photo of that wall,
Where you stood a few months ago in July.
Tears of sadness run like a flowing tap,
Causing concerned looks on the faces of passer-bys.
I then head up to Hardware Lane,
Where we always stopped and enjoyed a meal.
I sit at the table where we would always sit,
It’s hard to describe the heartache and pain I feel.
I’m on the train and alight at Jolimont,
The home of footy at the MCG.
I look at the photo you sent me on Grand Final day,
You looked so happy to me.
Now I. Make my walk back through the tunnel,
Without you holding my hand.
I know you are walking beside me,
Only this time you’re in the Promise Land.
Now every time I think of you,
I’m drowned by raw emotion.
My world feels like it’s completey spinning,
Forever going in slow motion.
Copyright © Tamara Myles | Year Posted 2018
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You’re always in my thoughts Jitterbug,
Your memory will never fade.
We had so many great times together.
Fond memories that we made.
Remember when we went camping in the van,
And you referred to me as a mung bean?
Or the time the air mattress got a hole in it,
It was the funniest things we’d ever seen.
Remember the times we would go driving,
Along the Great Ocean Road?
Music up fall blast of course,
In our spaceship van that glowed.
Or when you took me to Mt Buller,
To see snow for the very first time.
You taking me to Sydney and Melbourne,
Was the trip of my lifetime.
I reflect on our conversations had on the balcony,
As I look over at your vacant chair.
Away but never forgotten,
You’ve been taken from us, unthinkable to bare.
I hope you’ve found peace you were searching for,
And no longer suffering pain and anguish.
It now been passed on through our hearts,
One desperate grief cures another’s languish.
I can never truly say goodbye to you,
It’s not within my scope of choice.
I’ll now only see you in my dreams,
Never again will I hear your melodic voice.
No more drives to the end of an unknown road,
Time cannot be backward turning.
You’re an Earth-treading star that makes dark heaven light,
We will make sure your flame is always burning.
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The sky will shine brighter tonight Jitterbug,
It has you to add to its glory.
But down here I am left in the darkness,
With you having departed our story.
No longer will you battle the struggle,
Of chasing your demons away.
You can finally be at peace with yourself,
Now forever to you, I will pray.
For you are with the angels now,
Taken from us, but you’ve gained your wings.
I know you are in a better place,
But that doesn’t take away from the blow or the sting.
You are already greatly missed Jitterbug,
The impact- far and wide you have reached.
Unconditional love from all of us,
Something you show but cannot teach.
I’m waiting for you to walk through that door,
I’m waiting to take your call.
I’m so sorry I wasn’t there this time,
To catch you when you fall.
I feel so very empty inside,
I hope you didn’t feel pain when it came.
I have to pick up the shattered piece,
Without you, life will never be the same.
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My dearest Jitterbug,
The demon driver has eventually taken you,
As inevitably we both knew it would.
The spirit killer took you in its grasp,
Something I know you understood.
Your shadow ultimately let you fall,
To end all your turmoil and pain.
The venom injector knew you could no longer fight,
So it freed you from your constraints.
The only mercy you have ever known,
Appeared as the hateful soul snatcher.
It saw the end in your beautiful eyes,
And came back as the haunting death catcher.
I hope it came to you quickly,
With its dirty deeds and dirty tricks.
There was no way for you to break free,
The hounds inescapably giving you one final and fatal fix.
You challenged all its powers,
It was your master, and you it’s slave.
‘Try me once and your soul belongs to me,
Don’t fear being lonely, as I’ll walk with you to your grave’.
I’ll give you hellish nightmares,
While you lie sweating in bed.
Jitterbug legs torturously thrashing,
I’ll be the evil voice inside your head.
I’ll show you more pain,
Than your deepest betrayal.
I will bring you to your knees,
Making you forever weak and frail.
I’ll take and I’ll take,
Until there’s nothing more to give.
And when I’m through with my little game,
You’ll be grateful I didn’t let you live.
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If you try me be warned, this is no little game,
I’ll take everything from you, I’ll drive you insane.
You started off easy, with just smoking a joint,
Oh how the mighty has fallen, you upgraded to a point.
The sweats, the shakes, the illusions you’ll see,
You’ll have one person to tap hand, they’re courtesy of me.
I did try to warn you, just once and you’ll never go back,
I told you I wasn’t kidding, I’m going to make you crack.
You came to me remember, not I to you,
The choice was yours, I always knew what you would do.
I’ll have fun ravashing your body, while you’re out of your mind,
Then you’ll search high and low for me, and me you will always find.
I’ll then take everything from you, -your looks and your pride,
You’ll sell everything to get me, from me you cannot hide.
Everything you had is now gone, there’s nothing you can save,
Remember I first warned you, I’ll walk with you to your grave.
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You've now had your day in court,
I watched from the back as you took the stand,
The questions came at you straight away,
But you were high, not ready to land.
The jury has been more than patient,
You were left open to be stripped bare.
We came to witness your last hearing,
I wonder if you were ever truly prepared.
There were no excuses for you,
We had been waiting far too long for this,
We knew you would never come down to reality,
And leave your drug-fuelled bliss.
Your shadow had continuously let you fall,
Found too often blue and naked.
Me more than anyone else left questioning,
Would you pull through and make it?
But the time has eventually come,
And now we'll never get the answers,
The dark shadow has finally taken you.
Like a slow and painful cancer.
So whilst the ground beneath you gave way,
You thought you could run and hide,
Now you won't have to plea or beg,
It has now taken the life out of your eyes.
Copyright © Tamara Myles | Year Posted 2019
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It’s time for me to board the plane,
Where we both should be taking our seat.
The anxiety is quickly creeping in,
Coupled with waves of overwhelming heat.
I nervously take my seat at the front,
And wish you were seated beside me.
This was the trip we were suppose to make together,
Now I’m on my own and lonely.
The plane is speeding up now,
I feel the tears begin to fall.
I nervously twist your ring in circles on my finger,
I feel my skin begin to crawl.
Up in the air I’m getting closer to you,
Through the clouds I wish you would appear.
I wish you could break through the haze,
And be released from the spirit sphere.
I finally land on the tarmac,
Then I’m suddenly standing in front of the room.
Where we stayed so many times in our favourite place,
With past memories I am consumed.
I slowly step into our room,
Your suitcase no longer near mine.
I can see you standing next to me,
Your spirit’s here with a silver outline.
I’ll find it hard to sleep tonight,
Wishing that you were here.
So I hope to see you in my dreams,
Please make your presence clear.
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I’m folding up your clothes neatly,
As I took them from your shelf.
I held them tight against my blubbering face,
So I could smell your former self.
Tears stinging my swollen face,
As I breath your essence in deep.
Devastated you’re no longer here with me,
Nothing left to do but weep.
I know it caused you great sadness,
I know it all caused you pain.
You were captured by your demons,
They were never going to set you free again.
There were times you tried to fight them,
This time it finally won.
They came back and overpowered you,
You had no where left to run.
I stand lonely and numb in your room,
Remembering all the fun times we had.
I look over at your chair and you’re not there,
The only feelings right now is alone and sad.
I would have done anything to help you,
But I know it wouldn’t have been enough.
Your addiction had its tentacles tightly around you,
Like a thousand locked handcuffs.
I know you haven’t really left me,
You whisper ‘I’m closer than you know.
I’ll be the whisper in the wind,
-I’ll be everywhere you go’.
But I’d rather have you here on Earth,
That feeling must now be subdued.
Without you here to help me breathe,
I will now become unglued.
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