Come with me to St Matthews cemetery
a flock of culpability
What are red faces for ?
The incidence of pious Rosetta
At the graves edge
he was returned
An avalanche of prayers
omits forgiveness
A life unworthily lived
unmatching the reverend
The bats resume their business
The uneasiness of the pews
Feathers are the sinews of hope
Their curved plumage
thinks well of an English Hill
Categories:
unworthily, appreciation,
Form: Free verse
I felt scared and naked
Though fully clothed
I felt lonely than a loner
Never felt like this on the inside
I knew I had breached the great divide
The shield had lost its defense
My undoing has done me in
Woe to me! I am undone
I am a man of unclean lips
I have entered His presence unworthily
I carried unholy fire in my censors
I dread the reactions of my actions
Nadab and Abihu didn't have a second chance.
With trepidation I approached the throne
Crying "touch my tongue
Cleanse me with the refiners fire
I come bowed pleading for mercy
Appealing on your compassion.
Renew the right spirit within me
And restore unto me the joy of salvation
(Written 23rd of March 2015)
Categories:
unworthily, confidence, emotions, father son,
Form: Free verse
Ever do you love me?
Ever so unconditionally
Often do I disgrace you?
Often offending
Yet you ever understanding
Yet are you befriending
Not pretending your agape love is real
You love me; you love me it’s more than a feel
My God today you do love me
Ever so unconditionally
Often I am unworthily
I yet do thank you Father
For you my God for giving me
Yet you ever understanding
Yet are you befriending
Not pretending your agape love is real
You love me; you love me it’s more than a feel
Ever do you love me?
Ever so unconditionally
EVER DO YOU LOVE ME UNCONDITIONALLY
08/24/18
Written by James Edward Lee Sr.2018©
Categories:
unworthily, appreciation, confidence, god, inspirational,
Form: Free verse
All I ever wanted was a friend
Every day I searched until I met my end
Really wished I had mire time
If I knew you so many years ago
Could have had streght to tell my self it's so
Killing myself slowly because I feel unworthily
All I ever wanted was to feel like family
Life could have been so less empty if someone had believed me in
All I know is life is unfair for nothing can remove the voices of dispare
Years ago if I knew you I would have had a different life
Nothing can bring them back so I want to join them soon
Although it seems irrational I can't continue life without you
And I wish I could be more but i wish I could escape
Nothing can stop the voices taunting me my fate
They block out reality making life hard to see
Home is only a call away and believe me i am waiting
On day one I met you I felt a sense of meaning
Never had i ever had such friends that try to prevent me leaving
Yes i it may sound sad but I cannot live without you so I run excuse the pun till I stop beating
Categories:
unworthily, absence, confusion, dedication, depression,
Form: Dramatic Monologue
Wonder why I never fell?
Go down but never drown?
Why a smile is always painted
On my beautiful cheeks?
You reason as to why
My hearts sings always
Gracious hymns
And not songs of sorrow.
The secret you seek
Of my ever-lively heart,
The secret I shall tell,
Is this magical being.
An angelic being
That grasps my hand so I stumble not.
The name you ask,
Ayo I say, Ayobami Abiola.
She is the one who like a spell
Has painted a wide cheer
On my once sad cheeks
An eternal change.
Oh! God I thank you,
For this wonderful creature
Which you made me
So unworthily her bestfriend.
Her voice as subtle as a dove
Quenches any fire around me
She is always there, by my side
To guide, every step I take.
Ma meilleure amie
A rare gem.
Forever am I indebted to you
For your love, care, support and friendship.
This friendship
Will I cherish forever,
And I always will be by your side,
My very best friend.
Categories:
unworthily, friendship,
Form: Blank verse
Didn't know
how to be in this God haunted house,
I Mr imperfect:
short sighted and tone deaf
I saw things move as by a poltergeist,
heard thuds as though a carpenter lived between floors.
Speaking;
I could not ask and hear.
I'm sure she spoke but I wouldn't listen.
I don't want to know about him;
I want him
I can't have placating words,
I need love I can feel
I know it in my bones
but my flesh is all serpent like;
Writhing
in it's own oil spill
of fear and greed
needing a saving, cleanup operation
I'm sure you want to;
but I do not dare.
I take a deep breath
and look out of the window
I see it's raining
and almost trip as a I rush outside
I hope that the rain itself is the tears
of the one my heart seeks
soaking;
I cry myself; knowing his grief
Freezing I know the loneliness of all of His
I'm made one of them.
I didn't know how to live
in this God haunted house,
I a son,
a lover,
the adulterer,
the unfinished.
I still wrestle with doubt in my darkness
Panting;
I worship silently, unworthily,
Wrecked
I feel the cross of the world wearing me
I'm sure I can't live in this without the haunter...
Categories:
unworthily, allegory, faith, hope, inspirational,
Form: Blank verse
If children are a blessing from God
Then why hasn’t He blessed me?
Could it be that I’ve written about His love
So unworthily?
I’ve seen young mothers, just teens they are
Brag about their abortion date
I saved myself for marriage
Am I the object of God’s hate?
Why is life, I’m asking now,
Why is it so unfair
He’ll give a child to everyone else
To all those who don’t even care
I don’t do drugs, or drink, or smoke
But I’m infertile anyway
I have served God for all of my life
Then me he decides to betray
Just one little baby, is it too much to ask
Is it too much for god to let be?
After I get to carry one full term
I promise to have a hysterectomy.
Categories:
unworthily, confusion, sad, time, god,
Form: I do not know?