If this treatment doesn’t work…
I will be subjected to a new one.
A new treatment that is less hopeful,
And more punishing.
I begin to question their motives more with each day.
What is it we are trying to cure, anyway?
Am I selfish for not understanding?
Am I becoming more guilty of not being able to endure?
As the cure eludes me…
Categories:
untreatable, mental illness,
Form: Free verse
APACHE
His name was Apache
His eyes were so bright
He was completely full of joy
Hopping, jumping, dancing
Taking naps on top of me
Happiness, love, to fill the universe
Playing with home-made toys
Always excited to see each one
He warbled like a bird when he was held
He filled my heart so quickly
Like he knew me, before we met
He was a smart Guinea Pig
Squeaking from across the house,
When he knew I was cutting his food
He had a special ramp that I made
He would wait for his treats put on that
He always knew everything I would do
He was only 7 months old when he got sick
An ear infection spread, ending up untreatable
The light bulb of joy went out in my house
An emptiness that I cannot explain
There are other things that I cannot say,
But I wish that I had one more day
My writing area was near his play pen
When he left, my muse went with him
It will be a while to feel it again
It will be a while for my heart to mend
There is no answer for his leaving so young
There are always questions in life,
Left unanswered in some empty place that makes no sense
And we are expected to move on without knowing
Heidi Sands
9/26/22
Categories:
untreatable, animal, grief, loss,
Form: Free verse
This fever starts without chill:
it does not sneeze, cough,
nor are there shivers, shakes.
Drink, tablet, witchdoctor all powerless
against this most intangible malady.
It hovers like butterflies,
wings dancing. Floating air
weighed down in heartbeats,
expectant. A dull ache.
Fatigue from guessing,
rash by touch.
Love is catching -
this forever
fever untreatable.
Yours.
Categories:
untreatable, love,
Form: Diminished Hexaverse
Advocacy For Mental Health
70 percent of American take prescription drugs
Psychiatric medication overdose killed 50% more people in the us as of 2016
I have been misdiagnose since child and the side effect of the practice has warn
One of biggest lawsuit in history of America
A lot time the faculty is untreatable or manageable for care for patient
Truth be told all medication has side effects
Mental health is not getting better with the stigma behind it
Have Autism I tell you doctor look at you as number major of time
Looking to future knowing 2020 or between 2023 better treatment plan
May be available is reason I try so hard to fight the stigma
Might not know every thing but stigma of mental health is terrible thing
Advocacy For Mental Health
Categories:
untreatable, art, love, mental health,
Form: Political Verse
Before she ascended to heaven, she wrote a letter,
For the loved one's who didn't understand her struggle;
For the same ones didnt get to know her better
She was a lost sheep in a field without it's Shepard
She expressed her deepest apologies
This was an untreatable infection
It was an unspeakable inception
demons followin her, scratchin her back and bitin her ankles
Tryna cause havoc... Tryna break free..
Leavin her mind broken and her thoughts scattered
She was Bruise and battered, but you couldn't see the damage,
Cuz it's bandaged,
stitched up,
leave the needle hangin
Off of a cliff,
But she lost grip, she lost it, it wasn't fun, it was costly
She had nowhere to run,she was enticed by a false prophecy
Blockin' these cravings is not an option please believe me
Please believe her, she was sorry,
for all the fightin,
And a monstrous
Philosophy had her immodestly poppin' these roxy's.
And she's on 'em and she's got 'em and she won't stop 'em!
And now that she's gone, everyone wants to carry on
And Move on... But She's done,
So They've been done...
Categories:
untreatable, abuse, addiction, beautiful, death,
Form: Verse
At the age of thirteen, life is carefree
Time to become all that one can be
Life stopped for you; cut off at the knees
Being told very harshly about Huntington's Disease
At the age of thirteen, life is carefree
Ball games, skating, spelling bees
Being told very harshly about Huntington's Disease
The look of grief on your face and the weeping
Ball games, skating, spelling bees
Life stopped for you; cut off at the knees
The look of grief on your face and weeping;
At the age of thirteen, life is carefree
Categories:
untreatable, childhood, death, depression, education,
Form: Pantoum
without you, my poetry is
dead, leaving a crack of sadness;
and for this I just may stop,
‘cos the spirits are untreatable;
i hurt my mind…
and shattered my sanity;
better if we have not met, you thought;
i agreed, for you delved too much at the vanity;
and thru the pieces that I may have
or, may have not given;
and thru the songs that I may have
or, may have not written;
and I think, maybe I should reconsider
picking-up the thread of my life, for good grace is
my heart lasting desire; to start again
as if it were sunrise, perhaps, I find
a sweet butterfly, however this may seem
hope is keeping me alive; unto you
eternal peace and joy, I wish
even thru my deepest sorrow.
Categories:
untreatable, life, lost love, on
Form: Free verse