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Apache

APACHE

His name was Apache
His eyes were so bright
He was completely full of joy
Hopping, jumping, dancing
Taking naps on top of me
Happiness, love, to fill the universe
Playing with home-made toys
Always excited to see each one
He warbled like a bird when he was held
He filled my heart so quickly
Like he knew me, before we met
He was a smart Guinea Pig
Squeaking from across the house,
When he knew I was cutting his food
He had a special ramp that I made
He would wait for his treats put on that
He always knew everything I would do
He was only 7 months old when he got sick
An ear infection spread, ending up untreatable
The light bulb of joy went out in my house
An emptiness that I cannot explain
There are other things that I cannot say,
But I wish that I had one more day
My writing area was near his play pen
When he left, my muse went with him
It will be a while to feel it again
It will be a while for my heart to mend
There is no answer for his leaving so young
There are always questions in life,
Left unanswered in some empty place that makes no sense
And we are expected to move on without knowing

Heidi Sands

9/26/22

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Paul Callus Date: 10/2/2022 5:22:00 AM He died too young, and yet a bond of love had been established...a heartbreaking departure. We have a dwarf rabbit in the family; she loves us all, and is loved in return. I dare not think of how it would affect my granddaughter if it were to pass away. Hopefully your heart is learning to heal, Heidi. ~ Best regards // paul Login to Reply Heidi Sands Date: 10/2/2022 6:08:00 AM You are right Paul. Also, I love rabbits. I had rabbits for years up until this incident and the last ones lived way beyond life span. I hope your dwarf rabbit does well too. They are very loving. This incident has been treacherous and not easy to heal from. Thank you for your kind comment. Enjoy your bunny and I hope you have a nice day :)

Sotto Poet Date: 9/30/2022 4:34:00 PM A lovely poem is rife with feelings that capture the intensity of the connection that you enjoyed with your pets, Heidi. Login to Reply Heidi Sands Date: 10/1/2022 5:49:00 AM Thank you very much. I appreciate your visit and input :)

Sandra L. Weiss Date: 9/28/2022 11:28:00 AM A heartfelt, loving verse filled with emotion that describes the intense bond that you shared. Such sadness, loss, and as always, the question, why? We ask, but have yet to be answered. Someday... Login to Reply Heidi Sands Date: 9/28/2022 3:00:00 PM Thank you Sandy. I appreciate your comment and tribute poem as well. Yes, as always, the question why? Especially so young. We had a very strong bond. I am grateful for every moment I had with him :)

Joe Dimino Date: 9/27/2022 7:26:00 PM Beautiful, sensitive writing. When the two cats I have go, no more for me. Just too painful. Lovely tribute, Heidi! Login to Reply Heidi Sands Date: 9/28/2022 3:12:00 AM Thank you Joe. I understand. It is just too painful. There is nothing like the unconditional love and happiness from pets. I appreciate your kind comment. I hope you have a nice day with your cats :)

Alexis Y. Date: 9/27/2022 12:27:00 PM Hi Heidi, You penned such a touching and heartfelt write about your beloved pet. Losing a pet is like losing a family, because that’s what they are. I’m sorry for your loss. Take time grieve, your muse will return in time-Alexis Login to Reply Heidi Sands Date: 9/27/2022 12:47:00 PM Thank you so much Alexis. I was trying to process this deep grief and get beyond this writing block too. I appreciate your kindness and understanding. It is clearly going to take some time. This all happened so fast. I hope your day is going well. Take care :)

Vijay Pandit Date: 9/27/2022 5:12:00 AM Your poem tugs the heart for the pain you feel recalling memories. As you say, somethings in life go unexplained. Hope you find relief as time goes by, Heidi. Login to Reply Heidi Sands Date: 9/27/2022 6:54:00 AM Some things I just do not understand. Relief will take some time, this time. Thank you very much for your comment Vijay :)

Tom Cunningham Date: 9/27/2022 12:05:00 AM The loss of a pet is heartbreaking Heidi, they're part of the family. Having them put to sleep is an agonising decision to make but in time you realise it was the kindest thing to do. Tom Login to Reply Heidi Sands Date: 9/27/2022 4:50:00 AM Hi Tom yes, it is brutal. I have had pets all my life and been through painful experiences. There are some things about this one making it even worse. I appreciate your kind comment. I have been blocked with writing , so I thought I would try to write this and also give some understanding to why I am not writing as often yet. I hope all is well :)

Deb M Date: 9/26/2022 5:47:00 PM Oh Heidi I’m so sorry you are feeling so sad with the loss of your very loved Apache. Sending a big cuddle….Debx Login to Reply Heidi Sands Date: 9/27/2022 4:47:00 AM Thank you for your comforting comment Deb :)

Anne-Lise Andresen Date: 9/26/2022 5:42:00 PM - Heidi, heartbreaking ... so sorry for your loss - hugs // Anne-Lise Login to Reply Heidi Sands Date: 9/27/2022 4:46:00 AM Very much so. I am not getting beyond this very well. Thank you Anne-Lise :)

Joseph May Date: 9/26/2022 5:32:00 PM Heidi I know how much you loved Apache and how much joy he brought to you, I am so sorry for your loss, Hugs Login to Reply Heidi Sands Date: 9/27/2022 4:45:00 AM I love him very much. There was such a bond. This has been. heartbreaking. Thank you Joseph :)

Susan Ashley Date: 9/26/2022 5:09:00 PM Oh, Heidi, I feel your heartbreak and heartache poured upon the page. I’m so sorry for the loss of your precious Apache. You portray him and your broken heart with exquisite tender beauty. I can feel how special he was, the joy he brought to you. I’ve known this kind of heartbreak too, my friend, and can relate to your amazing last line. Please post a photo of Apache if you can. What a wonderful heartwarming friend he was. Warmest wishes.. ~Susan Login to Reply Heidi Sands Date: 9/27/2022 4:44:00 AM Susan, thank you for taking the time to leave such a kind , fulfilling comment. I appreciate it very much :)