month in, month out,
dance of the seasons,
moving through in nothingness
comfortable sameness,
cold waiting for warm,
warm sliding into hot,
hot changing into comfortable,
comfortable changing back into cold.
month in month out,
each year the same
each season similar,
the players a bit older,
thinner, or thicker, waiting for
something different to happen
annoyed by things
that are too different,
unexcited, apathetic,
waiting for someone else
or something else, or somewhere else
to change your life for you.
banal sameness, bored doing what
you are doing, yet not lifting yourself
out of your lazy-Girl
arguing the same old tired arguments.
staring at the same movies,
month in month out
Categories:
unexcited, life,
Form: Free verse
Life. I feel like I have no life. No energy fills up inside me.
Out of touch. I feel out of touch when the feeling to drink doesn't consume me.
Sucky. I feel like I suck when I am in my room when everybody else is getting drunk and partying.
Unexciting. I feel unexcited when I am being consumed with my negativity.
Real. I feel not real like I am just a doll being used as a toy.
When will I stop feeling like a loser but a winner.
I guess it is up to me whether I finally take control of my life or not.
Categories:
unexcited, depression,
Form: I do not know?
Years- content, scheduled, unsure
Years- fun, empty, wasted
Not few, not a couple,
Not too many, just enough
To feel soulless, goalless, unexcited
Young enough to choose direction,
Too old to define life based on talent
Young enough to find a yearn for something, anything,
Old enough, yearning for many things
The urge to dance, sing, write,
New, diverse, unlike the usual
Not defined by anything besides what could one day be
Defined not by resentment,
But the fact, that even though happiness should come from finding greatness
Happiness has come from the journey of not finding it;
Greatness has not been found, in fact
Greatness is yearned for,
Causing unsureness and adventurousness
Adding to the journey,
In turn, creating a sense happiness,
Almost better than the true form
Not only one soul, but a soul and the glow
The glow ignites form a form completely separate
For with this form, plans have somewhere to begin
To branch goals for life from one, true, sure, existence.
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Categories:
unexcited, confusion, happiness, hope, life,
Form: I do not know?
It seems our sight is parsimonious.
No matter how hard our naked eyes look,
radio is invisible to us,
as are the microwaves we use to cook.
The X-rays zip through our orbs unsighted,
and highly energetic gamma rays
leave retinal pigments unexcited,
so most of the spectrum escapes our gaze.
However, our vision is tactical.
What we know as “visible frequency”
turns out to be extremely practical,
to show us the things we most need to see,
assisting survival upon the Earth
and providing color, for what it’s worth.
Categories:
unexcited, science
Form: Sonnet
2 Words
Bored lonely
Unfulfilled unexcited
Lies deceit
Saw you
Wanted you
Needed you
Loved you
Beat me
Slap me
Rape me
Kick me
Pregnant happy
My husband
Miscarried abuse
Beat me
Slap me
Kick me
Unloved unwanted
Got strong
Got bold
No more
Packed belongings
Left you
Feel loved
Feel wanted
Doing better
By myself
Categories:
unexcited, black african american, hope,
Form: I do not know?