I'm self destructive a ticking time bomb
I'm impatient and impulsive with a lot of feelings
Mixed into a delicious cocktail so sweet and creamy
sure does taste good at first but after so many sips of me
I'm too intense for you too heavy on you
now you put me down thinking I'm not good for you
you say baby its not you its me but I know all too well
"baby its not you its me" says my anxiety sarcastically
My heart cries as my brain just stands there and watches
Now I'm just half drunk and feeling empty
Like u took something from me
Now I'm here wishing you could pour back into me
Like you needed me, when I ruined it
Now your just a lesson when i look back at it
Categories:
self destructive, lost love,
Form: Free verse
Gorging upon self-indulgence
while your soul lies starving in the corner
Dissociatively liberated from consequence
as the host endures accountability
Psychotically clinging to a desirable fiction
(an accessible and depraved fantasy)
and basking in its soothing narratives
whenever the tangible becomes inconvenient
Dipping sporadically into a permeable
realm of artificial favorability
Detaching yourself from that which exists
to experience that which is merely theoretical
Categories:
self destructive, introspection, philosophy, psychological,
Form: Free verse
Lost in a world,
Of thoughts galore,
We chase after thoughts,
Of things we adore!
But despite not even…
Having them yet…
It’s the thoughts that we crave…
And not what we get!
For after we get…
What we think we require…
The thoughts move on…
To the next desire!
We get things we want,
But compare them to thought!
Then fail to be happy,
Till the next things bought.
Happiness then…
Is a destination…
That changes as soon
As the next thoughts creation!
Love can be often
completely one sided,
Because thoughts are egos,
And defend what’s decided!
If one ego decides…
That the others “the one”,
Then despite being wrong…
It’ll try till its done.
We can love a thought…
Without the person!
And the more we think…
The more it will worsen!
Cause love is a feeling…
That causes thinking…
That causes more feeling…
In a heart that is sinking!
Thinking’s not bad…
But beware when you use it!
Its intense! And powerful!
Pleeeeease never abuse it!
Categories:
self destructive, emotions, feelings, happiness, relationship,
Form: Epic
Can you see the destruction?
Can you see our fate?
How can you turn your head;
To the poverty and hunger
In the world today,
Self-Destruction approaches
Self-Destruction approaches
Greed, Need, Succeed,
Never got us peace;
Can you feel it?
Can you feel the anger?
Can you feel the hatred?
Those who scorn you,
Those who torment you,
Those who chew you up and spit you out,
In a second, as if you were, nothing,
Nothing,
Non-existent;
Peace is not as close as combustion
Exploding from the inside out
This is what the world is leading to
This is our fate,
Our end,
Our self-destructive destiny.
Categories:
self destructive, political, social, time, visionary,
Form: Free verse
I never hold a candle to you
never shine a light
There's no internal force
which keeps me yearning through the night
I'm horrid faced with paperwork
and technically unsound
There are no love notes hidden about
since you're not around
This town is vacuum-packed and rude
with heartstrings cut asunder
I can't help but wonder if you're still strung to me
I wonder, do we still love each other?
Our history is pasted
on the walls of mind and matter
Electric smiles light up our lips
in glass too thick to shatter
But now my candle's flickering
on the edge of youthful age
I'm a story with no ending
on your self-destructive page.
Categories:
self destructive, loss, nostalgia, people, time,
Form: Quatrain