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Half a Dozen Plus Years Ago the Following Became a Near Reality

Half a dozen plus years ago the following became a near reality

Countdown to homelessness – 
mars this earthlinked sole Harris - son
panhandler would would register 
pyrrhic victory won.

10…9…8…3..2..1… 
Found me linkedin at the end of my wits
mein kampf and hard times 
playing on big screen at the Ritz
vamoose oft times motivations quits
for -- no money iz the pits
without any rich Uncle (Sam) in my orbitz
to ease worse case scenario than bing covered
head to toe with nits
if...offered residence among... 
hive feel stung as beelzebub doth buzzfeed, 

after being espied, 
targeted in the crosshairs
of excellent marksman - 
credo, ethos, and holistic lifestyle - a mitts
fa this contemplative, furtive, 
and intuitive chap lits
of luminous joie de vivre 
will emanate like bland kits
and biting the bullet 
no less tasty than true grits,
the latter touted by Euell Gibbons
of bias, discrimination, fuhgeddaboudit
suddenly resplendent with blinding blitz 
warp and whoop of bits.

Medium of spoken or written word
avast milieu this wordsmith doth assay,
the aim of said missive constitutes 
avoiding living in cardboard box or bidet
house zing debacle looms approximately 
soffit teen eaves from this day
if scant success, this atypical, ideal 
and zeal - lot might post himself on eBay
or mebbe get swooped up 
by 10,000 cannibals and turned into a fillet
which mish mashed matted mush
will resemble fifty shades of gray.

Words above and below 
written June thirtieth, 
two thousand seventeen indicates,
when rental lease 
will find our psyches fillet
so this buster brown 
(actually Eastern European Semitic caucasian)
hooped to stave then 
turning fifty plus eighteen shades of gray
weigh past time of life 

to gather rose buds – boot hay
touted as AARP candidate
my inner child doth inlay,
I approach outer limits
per twilight zone of this blue jay
youthful looking married male - 
with doe eyed wife does not buck, 
donnybrook and neigh
against mortality reckons, 
a safe and secure domicile

important basic needs 
(codified by Abraham Maslow) – okay
this LVIII year young chap 
haint expect tin tubby be housed
in courtly Highland manor,
yet anxiety sans poverty will play
a cruel hoax ruse trick finding me 
to jump off a bridge –
with pier - sing quay
King Crimson ready

to bring cessation of existence – 
when nada stinging ray
of salvation pleasantly doth sashay
and bring relief before 
unwelcome ominous killer fate
inches closer incrementally from today
this father of deux darling 
then near grown daughters
might fare better brexit - ting America 
high tailing dreams to Uruguay.

Nary a snowball chance in hell
this alter kaker will nab employment
since receiving social security 
emotional disability for countless years
(viz anxiety, dysthymia, 
obsessive compulsive disorder, and prone
to become emotionally panicky
and paralyzed in social situations)
relies on medications, 
which palliative doth alleviate, calm, and endow
relief (from debilitating, harrowing,
and lacerating quality of being alive.

LIST OF PRESCRIPTION MEDICATIONS THEN TAKEN:

1. Clonazepam 0.5 MG Tablets;
(generic - Klonopin); (1 tablet 3x daily).
2. Floxetine Hcl 40 MG CAPS; (Generic - Prozac). 
3. Prazosin 1 MG capsule - 1 capsule nightly.
4. Quetiapine Fumarate; (generic - Seroquel) -
50 MG; (2 tablets 2x daily).
5. not a misprint – a higher dosage,
this pop pops prior to bedtime.
Quetiapine Fumarate; (Generic - Seroquel);
100 MG; (1 tablet at bedtime).

Sought an affordable place
against the sands of time 
thyself and spouse race
already envisioning an outlook 
that doth harken to trace
living non social on bleak street - 
forever reaching for salvation
like Samuel Coleridge Taylor, 
his rime of the ancient mariner
or John Keats lovers for’ ever glazed 
asper ode on a Grecian (formula) vase.

Mine status begs turing 
vibrant with near blinding light
could inform this bloke 
if any long term living accommodations
ever available, or perhaps 
if no can do versus tae kwon do might
be privy to share information about
any eco-friendly community 
to forestall any unpleasant plight
specifically being pitched out 
on the streets  with thee spouse
onto the bleak cobblestone streets 
of the urban jungle, where right
iz determined by spittle and spite
and valuables must be clutched tight.

OCCUPATION: 
I receive social security disability 
for re: max him mum,
long and fostered, during the latter half 
of the Fox and Roach pelted per
pesky pointedly nineteen hundred
and fifty nine 
ever since my conception in utero -
likened to a luke warm Caldwell, 
and the entire century 21.

STATE: protracted, anxiety
COUNTRY: United States

Copyright © Matthew Harris

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