Am I good enough?
I climb and climb in hopes to reach the top,
I climb and climb to reach everything I'm not.
But every time I get close to the mountain's peak,
it grows and once again I learn that I'm weak.
I'm always close to the top, yet never close enough,
I want to get there although it is unheard of.
Reaching the peak would make everything okay,
because right now I seem to be going astray,
away from all I grew up on and all I love,
I'm fading from it all, everything I'm proud of.
Is my climbing and struggle even worth it?
Because sometimes I feel I should just quit.
Giving up would be easier, accepting me as I am,
with my overall worth equivalent to a milligram.
But I'll keep climbing to try and reach the peak,
to get to that place which I continually seek.
Am I good enough yet?
Categories:
milligram, anxiety, depression, emotions, identity,
Form: Rhyme
Milligram or million
Kilogram or billion
For the millionth time
Please pay me one thin dime
I do not know math you see
School was no good for me
So all these terms are the same to me.
Milligram or million
Dealer's choice
Categories:
milligram, math,
Form: Light Verse
They were a couple
He was a milligram
She was a million
They were a couple
He was a braggadocio peacock
She was a compassionate giving deer
They were a couple
He was a worthless sloth
She was an enterprising entrepreneurial bee
They were a couple
It should not have worked at all.
It worked beautifully.
Categories:
milligram, love,
Form: Free verse
1 more
milligram
stat
the tunnel's light
now further away
but brightest
in a night's sky
the unwiseman says
take me to your magi
Categories:
milligram, muse,
Form: I do not know?
Pills for all ills
Here are my bottles filled with pills
Which doctors claim can cure all ills
Amoxicillin for ear, nose and throat
They've never worked for me
So they don't get my vote
Mirtazapine to keep me calm
Works better than a herbal balm
Ramipril for high blood pressure
Taken each morning in five milligram measure
Cod Liver Oil capsules to loosen up limbs
It's a thing of the past me going to gym's
Codeine for muscle pain taken each night
Restless Leg Syndrome, a terrible plight
Remembering to take them all is a constant battle
If I take anymore I will surely rattle
Categories:
milligram, poetry,
Form: Rhyme
What is it with you?
Tiny little pill
That makes me crave you
Even though I’m not even ill
You have clouded my judgment
And infected my brain
The way I let you control me
I must be totally insane
I know I should leave you
Discard you for sure
But I can’t seem to shake
Your illicit allure
You always seem to know
How to make me forget
All the things in my life
That fills me with regret
You numb all my pain
And chase away my fear
You take me from my reality
And make everything disappear
How ironic it is
Although my mind is sedated
I feel we are as one
Both poison and encapsulated
I guess I must accept
You’re my companion for life
My life’s guilty pleasure
My 80 milligram wife
So forever we are bound
You have had me from the start
Just one dose of your pleasure
So now it’s till death do us part
Categories:
milligram, absence, addiction, life, slavery,
Form: Rhyme
my hands escaped me talking nonsense
as in every direction they fly the coop
a full conversation with myself
ten fingers what a bounty and if only toes will assist
will be a milligram and what is that with hands flying
the mum in the middle of nowhere but sure got my bicycle back.
Categories:
milligram, language, mum,
Form: Free verse
Endless is the Road
I have for some time not been eating boiled cabbage and it is
of not the slightest importance unless it has been boiled with
pork shoulder ham. I just say this because we had dinner at
a restaurant for once I was not driving since we were taking
the motorway a toll road where all the crazy people assemble.
Big powerful cars driven by men who have not yet mastered
the mantra my driving instructor repeated: you drive the car it
doesn’t drive you.
I dislike driving on modern roads, they go on forever and I get
the feeling of a prisoner, a man who looks out his barred cell
window and sees only the landscape’s seasons but cannot touch
It inhales the aroma. I shall never be free of a past imagined.
I demanded she stop the car, I was going to walk home, a feat
I’m not capable of, I demanded a cigarette – we don’t smoke-
she gave me 5- milligram valium, as ordered by the doctor, and after
a break, we somehow got home.
Categories:
milligram, angst, anxiety, assonance, car,
Form: Blank verse
Relaxants
Someone was coming to look at my house,
it is for sale, they should be here at three.
Not being used to people I took 5 milligram
Valium… they didn´t arrive at three, I took
a pill of ten milligram.
Now I was totally relaxed, made coffee and
asked myself why should have to wait.
for people who can´t keep time. I felt a bit
drowsy and fell asleep, heard knocking on
my door but didn´t bother to open.
Spiders web hang from the beams and my
dog who has been dead for ten years still is
on a carpet in the hall. Would be buyers will
only come in to complain, who needs that.
Categories:
milligram, corruption, freedom, humor,
Form: Sonnet
thought for today --
a ten milligram bee
with ten pound stingers
long live the yellow jacket
Categories:
milligram, angst,
Form: Senryu
I like you
My little periods of joy
Not sure what
We are like together
Probably not a good combination
But I love you all the same
You make me tired
But content
You make me forget
To pay my rent
I'll listen to sad songs
But I wont cry
Because I've swallowed you
Deep down inside
You make me feel warm
A blanketed kiss
You wrap around me
Sheilding the mist
The fuzzy thoughts
Still in my head
But uninterpreted instead
Of feeling bad
And feeling low
I'm not a sad girl anymore
Categories:
milligram, me, me, sad, i
Form: I do not know?