A blanket of silent fluffy fog
Liquid-smooth muscles at rest
Dreamy with drifty thoughts
Tea-kettle steam pre hiss
No worries, no woes
No wrinkly, scrinkly nose
Lemon and honey tea
Not sleeping; not waking;
Nowhere to go; nothing to do
Float through a limp lazy day
June gentle breeze
Swaying lovely willow trees
Like silky warm skin
Sleeping on a sandy beach
Cows graze in the field
Creeks meander along slow
(Meander is a funny word.)
Lovers in naked embrace
Smooth jazz in the evening
Song sparrows sing in the sun
After Thanksgiving-dinner nap
Ice cream and mint tea
Foot massage and back rubs
Sleep in on Sunday till ten
Mountain meadow’s crystal stream.
If it ends in p-a-m
It’s the good stuff.
The fireworks glaze the corners of my eyes
But I can't see, the bombs falling all around me
The rushing blood pumping through my legs
I can feel glaucoma coming with every scream
Grasping the chalky stone near my knees
A black sky, alight with frozen mitochondria
A gibbous moon passes this outer lined disease
Clenching my chest, a latrine of hypochondria
Walking back through the city for my apartment
Bumping into each bystander my indifference can reach
Lossless complaints printed upon a crinkled parchment
My apathetic tendencies swim through this tar soaked beach
Preparing my makeshift bed and wishing I could pretend
That soaking my throat in lorazepam will melt my ice cold cornea
That this melting pillow will strip all my split ends
That this night wouldn't suffer from mental palinopsia
The colours that you bring to me,
Bitter, sweet, wounded emotion,
Cornered, threatens my mortality,
Sinner, romanticized glory,
Cover of shameful intention,
Take a stool, this is my story,
Relapse, relapse, this ain't a game,
Rehabilitation, again and again,
Reacuring nightmares,
My parents shame,
Anxiety levels,
Ice to flame,
Sweating and shaking,
When 0% proof,
Panic attacks,
Your through the roof,
Pose for the picture,
When the police ask,
Fingerprints, handcuffs,
Alcohol filled cask,
Lorazepam, diazepam,
Temazepam, and more,
Subutex, tramadol,
I Take them all,
Cut and bleed,
Self harming,
Overdose, poisoning,
Jump off scaffolding,
Got my scars,
In my head and skin,
Fighting hard,
And still living......