Long Untrusting Poems

I don't think it's just me.
I find myself challenged to change LeftBrain cognitive beliefs,
languaged abstractions of personal feelings,
perhaps because it is not possible to change Right Brain's
Elder feelings of co-passionate trust
where dipolar co-arising positive pleasure
is...

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“The Juniper Prize: Between the Known and the Unknown”

That man built a house 
of straw and sticks
and the stories that burned within -

all consuming the titled prize;

like a bird 
sings a song
the metre repeats and...

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This is a very long poem and I will understand if you choose not to spend the time reading it. 
It is something I wrote a long time ago and I thought I’d just put...

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Imagine your healthiest body
is a democratic
self/other empowering organism

Ideally,
most nutritionally,
nurtured by an also open,
living,
dynamic win/win preferential,
evolving,
revolving planetary universe,
in many sacred times and places
also known as MotherEarth.

Notice
your democratic bodymind
is an open
holistic
ego/eco-centering
co-invested re-centering,
co-acclimating interior and exterior
bilaterally systemic infrastructure
for...

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Kang, an asian boy who has lunch by me, has the funniest laugh I know.
I BET IN THE NEXT TEN YEARS... he will become a professional comedian.
YET IN THE NEXT TEN YEARS... he will be...

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My family doesn't understand
How me and my brain work
Or all the instabilities in my head,
Feeling like I might break
At any point or another,
How I could cry at any moment,
How I am never relaxed at any...

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Sinfonia
Phi For One
Mu for Alpha

Orange splices of pure fire fall to the cavernous wall as if the world was on its head,
Shadows of friends in greeting prints the rock a far, 
I sit in comfort...

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Butterflies 


I sent her an email with butterflies attached, I was hoping she'd open it, her heart would I snatch. 
It was ten past four when she read it-after quite a very long day. 
They...

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Here it lies in a pool of non-consenting blood, barely beating and still in shock all the while being whispered to this was love
Man is usually the predator and the weaker of the two is...

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A smashing sound stirs, they “bang the gavel.”
Concessions granted; court begins to unravel.
The eight need votes, an agreement was reached. 
Abandoning rightwing values once preached
Tenure, cast it as a repudiation of his failure to lead.
Accusations...

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Across the room, you sat as the teacher came to class
Your bright eyes met mine in a longing gaze,
Brown pools of dust lit up by the suns heat were what I dreamed 
When I look...

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The first of my screw ups,
Possibly anyways,
I know I could have gone down in flames with that one;

I am almost positive that it’s what started it,
The untrusting,
The apprehension towards the one thing I want the...

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Bleeding Paloma

He sees her in the tree, high up
Hidden among the mango leaves
Her egg-shell coloring peer through
The dark green.  He scatters the 
Seeds upon the earth and waits 
Until she flitters down, at first
Untrusting...

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Butterflies 


I sent her an email with butterflies attached, I was hoping she'd open it, her heart would I snatch. 
It was ten past four when she read it-after quite a very long day. 
They...

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For the longest time, we were told
to FOLLOW our hearts and never fold.
If I might dare just this once to be so bold;            ...

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4/27/17


Winter, Spring, Summer and Autumn
Changes rarely or often
Occuring by the top of the river mouth and at the bottom
Near and far from fruits and vegetables still fresh or rotten
As well as any flowers starting to...

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Rough

            Flying fast

No obstacles hindering its path

            Except a face

That face of yours

...

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Freshman geek. Computer nerd.
Shy, sweet, not my type.
So why did his presence follow me like
A homeless, hungry puppy?
Unforgettable, undeniable, irresistible.
Just friends, but my heart already knew.
And the Matchmaker smiled.

Electricity in his touch.
Butterflies in my stomach.
The...

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Quietly 
Without warning
It starts to rise
Like a ghost
It seeks your demise

In chest
Of peaceful being
It starts to boil
Sending her
Over the edge
Onto dry soil

Like dagger 
through Lung
Unease is sung
By overthought Whispers
In brutal mind
The truth unwinds
No sense can...

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Thank You!

For showing me the world is cruel, 
evil, to be cautious, suspecting, untrusting, 
and doubt other peoples intentions;
when I needed to feel safe.

For causing insurmountable pain, 
nightmares, psychological instability,
and permanent emotional scars;
when I needed...

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Many scripture passages have set the tones
Yet Isaiah 57:5, Acts 17:28, Psalm 139:7 and Exodus 33:14 are letting it be known
Jesus presence is felt everywhere
It is something beyond compare
You just have to understand from where
Jesus...

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“Going Home”

(for all the rescue pets just waiting…)



Just when I thought how wonderful it would be in my life - 
To not be responsible for someone else, 
I met you.

You weren’t that attractive, 
A little...

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A different way for every body, A different path for every soul,
Occasionally they intermingle, But most the time I stand alone.
Behind me looms a twisted wonderland, Before me only stark darkness I see.
But the one...

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Sunday evening
5:57 p.m.
September 27, 2015
Kansas City, Mo
Stephen Becker pen name Brian Stoaks


                      "Your Mistake"

Walking...

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He wished it to seem magic!
He wanted there love to be at best pleasant.
More than doing cures and having favor,
he wanted romance and love, she appeased him
because she loved him: but more than that she...

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