Long Begrudging Poems

Somehow, 
Forward, and headlong
I knew it was day again

There was a shift in the dark mutterings of the Devil,
Who now refused to sleep as I refused to sing,
Almost an anticipation in his voice,
As if he...

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I often surprise many people in many ways
With the words I say…with the actions I make…
It’s extraordinary how many seek high praise
With the words they say…with the actions they fake…

Neither will I…
Assume the worst in...

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Upon this date he spoke no more of the preceding moments, 
Tearing and hurling insult upon insult
In several directions, his tongue whipped and scorched me,
And he waited relentlessly to see the spark in my eyes...

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Experience v Theory,
like Both/And inducted feelings v. Either/Or deductions,
like Internal Information v External ReConstructions,
like Memory v ReImaging,
like Cause/Effect v DNA of causal-effective nest 
of resilient Golden WinWin Theory

Western nature v spirit theories v Eastern nondual...

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Who suggests a trip back...rides to this bit of nostalgia in the middle years of the Great Depression aboard a Chicago elevated train, "the El." We hurdle head-long above asphalt blanketed streets that are determined...

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III.
“Eagle Vision says since his own son died
he’s felt a hollow no raiding can fill,
that men should be fathers, pass their wisdom
to adopt you as his own is his will.

“From this day forth you’ll be...

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The saddest lines begin tonight, with a lone soul 
Bare but for the thin veil of a pale white moonlight,
Beside myself, and taxed upon deep reflection,
For the night is starry, and my empty cup has...

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It’s Sunday morning, about 8am. My BF Peter and I we’re doing our laundry. Most of the time, we spent in my dorm common room, sitting side by side on a red corduroy couch, while...

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Please do not hold me within those claws of unworthiness
As if your judgment alone DEFINES me!
Get out of here, you little baby,
You don’t recognize what’s good for you!
Push away the peas,
But you’re still going to...

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I know six languages, 
The one I write in
The one I speak in,
My mother’s words,
My father's verse,
And those of my brothers.

My mother speaks quickly 
In baking terms and 80’s slang
She speaks in sewing materials,
Starbucks orders,
And...

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Aye Writhed With Agony...

Unbeknownst to any
     innocent onlooker, aye
underwent extreme internal
     torture with silent cry
ying whimpers, whence,
     (either left or

   ...

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The other members of the group would tease Lambent Shroud.
They’d speak in groans n puns too.
You’d sense lambent was a little uncomfortable with it all.
The other members of this amazing group were all tall, had...

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A humanity Slain by a black ghost flame

Because their God was an unspeakable name

A Mournful, Insane, multitude with emnity and self induced labor pains

An Eon that has never awoken - A Copt of Souls- skin...

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The Loner goes on
Imagining friends
He heads for a coffee
With hopes to an end
 
He looks at the counter
Then raises his head
And wonders why
All his looks are of dead
 
He picks at his pocket
Not sure what’s...

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It was time for a vacation, in fact it was overdue.
A three day holiday Fourth of July; we planned a trip for two.

The children were in high school and had things to do with friends.
Sometimes...

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Waking to sight of day
The ironic disorientation
bedroom ceiling moviescreen 
fades out this dreams last scene
left looking dumbfounded at tiles

Sunrays shine splintered through bent blinds
  casting illuminous entities into otherwise
darker turf
  Blanket tangles limbs...

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Born of the light, shadowed by the darkness of time
Theseus knew, not the love of a father nor friend
Seen for the man he should be by an 'ancient' sublime
Bound by the love of a mother,...

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Cribbar



I stand on the precipice,

I drink her eagerly from atop the raw stone.

Her jaws split open in bursts of pure, vicious foam around the feet of civilisation;

I stand caught between worlds, my soles firmly planted...

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Cramps creeping and crawling, 
an unwelcome reminder.
Why does my body betray 
me like an unfaithful secret lover, 
chaining me to my bed.
When did my uterus become my enemy, 
even the pills offer no sympathy.

As a...

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Celestial jewel, resplendent in space—
unique to creation, now fallen from Grace.
Once mantled in radiance, sum essence of beauty,
good earth, you embraced both destiny and duty.

By nature you nuture, sustaining all life,
abundant and selfless—yet burdened with...

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I have been thinking about the meaning of life
There was life here long before I came to be
And there will be life continuing long after me.
It seems I have a rather small window of impact
Not...

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As Winter Flees Giving Spring A Begrudging Nod

As winter flees giving Spring a begrudging nod
So the farmer waits to turn over life giving sod
Mother Nature, bows to Heavenly hand of God
Summer too, waits to embrace...

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here at gadgados we keep loosing them employees
the other day me was so frustrated threatened a quit
the MD heard of it i was summoned to the big office

whats the problem.. don't complain about your duties
do...

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No one willfully wants to assist the blight
Only we seem to be, yet clearly in the right
They are and must come screaming bloody
Hell, what don't they understand? Something
In the dark cries out, nothing comes from...

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Some smiles appear begrudging,
With the lips a zippered slit,
As if somebody were judging
If they’d part a little bit.

Some smiles seem quite ironic,
Slightly turned up at the ends
And though possibly demonic,
Still, some happiness extends.

Certain smiles are...

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