Just let it go.’ Easier said than gone -
‘You’ll be nothing without me, says pain,
‘I’m your identity.’ Well,
listen up, old man of the sea,
she’s dislodged you, uncurled
her spine from the burden of you;
spat you, shat you out,
delivered you, ectopic cuckoo,
to sprawl helpless on the beach.
What will you do now?
Scuttle sideways, find
another hollow person to crawl into?
But you’re fading, dissipating,
becoming nothing.
The shoreline will be clean of you.
She can see so far across the water.
Categories:
ectopic, allusion,
Form: Free verse
I am still your mother, though I've never seen your face
I was never able to hear your heartbeat, or feel your sweet embrace.
I am still your mother, though I can't assume your gender, or the color of your hair; nor the color of your eyes, but you were still there.
I am still your mother, no matter how big or small you were.
I'll never get to tickle your little feet, or see a smile I could adore.
I still your mother, even though God had taken you too soon.
He needed another angel, and a safer place for you; I love you to the moon.
Categories:
ectopic, angel, baby, grief, loss,
Form: Rhyme
Ectopic Wanderings
Born far from where
I was supposed to be,
nearer to the end
I chased the beginning
throughout my life
—forever going home
(Red Lodge Montana: September, 2021)
18kt Memories
I’ll wear a Rolex
once I’m dead,
as accolades surround
The past what’s left
of what was right,
buried in the ground
Beneath my dreams
above my hope,
one wish to tell the tale
Of life now lived
with death in charge
—new gold among the shale
(Ouray Colorado: September, 2021)
As Darkness Fell…
I got in the door
when no one was looking
and stayed
as the world looked away
I crashed every feeling
borrowing dreams
awake
in the afternoon’s mourning
(Ely Nevada: September, 2021)
Together Alone
Wisdom and love
in conflict they wed
to sleep through the darkness
—alone in the same bed
(Gardiner Montana: September, 2021)
Rent To Own
Once you move past
the imagery and symbols
vision stays constant
—connection secure
(Thermopolis Wyoming: September, 2021)
Categories:
ectopic, travel,
Form: Free verse
My ego lost virginity,
upon the critics throne
Pregnant with doubt ectopic,
its embryo disowned
With labored forced delivery,
and fetus left unsired
A chastised unwed mother
—giving birth to words bemired
(Ronald McDonald House: February, 2020)
Categories:
ectopic, words,
Form: Rhyme
Ectopic heart
beat. Acoustic
neuroma. Sleep
apnea. Getting
older blessing
against alternative.
Neither hate
nor repair.
Immediately
the woods were familiar ?
bunchberry, clintonia.
Red spruce, yellow birch.
Heron rowing
northward overhead
a sign: good luck.
Or was it just
a crow. Rock thrown.
Don't know.
Life's ending.
My sons
have each other
for laughter
at their tragedies.
Avalanche, cataract.
Clean house or
run for president.
Power and talent
are bones in your feet.
Nature's the bed
you'll sleep in.
Thyroid storm.
Screech
of the long-eared
owl. Even if
portent of death,
it's welcome.
Categories:
ectopic, blessing, death, hate, heart,
Form: Verse
Everybody was in hurry to unpack
the sins and reshuffle the names
of burns, by taking a holy dip
in mauve lake. I wanted to defang them.
Acid attack had the inversion effect
on the expressions.
It was an obscene vision
unrolling the infant
for bleeding an opponent. The procession
moved on. Details never came out.
Only the flaming bodies, loud thuds
and the screaming virgins.
This was unlucky for the hutments,
fragile poles crumbled down, unspeakable
emptiness on the faces. Something has
to be unlearnt. Too much pain of
the knowledge. Ectopic pregnancy?
SATISH VERMA
Categories:
ectopic, adventure, allegory, angst, animals,
Form: ABC
Ectopic it was
Crying
Tormented my mind
Obstacle of hardship
Pain (that is deep and buried within my soul)
Initial shock
Crushed
Precious gift was taken from me
Remembered( you will always be with me)
Endless emotions
Grieving (was all I could do)
Never had the chance to hold you
Anger
Never to hear your cry
Crying over you is all I could do
Year has past and it's your birthday
This is dedicated to my unborn child that I shall never forget and continue to walk
with in my heart and thoughts everyday of my days.....
"God Bless"
Categories:
ectopic, death, loss, sad,
Form: Bio