What do I call that young coquette?
My shadow self; my silhouette.
Those clothes, that hair, a cigarette.
The joie de vivre; the vain regret.
What sort of pithy epithet
will she recall, lest I forget?
Perhaps, instead a sobriquet
for who I was back in the day.
But what would she wish to portray?
Somewhat naive, a bit risqué?
A wounded child or power play?
“All that and more!” is what she’d say.
That girl who played a victim game
(though she would make the counter-claim).
A femme fatale; a wild flame.
A spirit not a soul could tame.
Both full of pride and full of shame,
all contradiction just the same.
It all feels now as but a dream,
that martyr of her own regime.
A fog of war; a distant scream.
An echo of one’s disesteem.
A soldier who would self-redeem
and break her shackles at the seam.
Now when she comes to mind I smile,
recalling each and every mile
we marched and fought in rank and file.
We failed, we wailed, we shed the guile
to wake and heal and reconcile
a misspent youth and life worthwhile.
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Categories:
disesteem, age, appreciation, courage, growing
Form: Rhyme
Graduate with mission and purpose,
Focus on financial breakthrough
But get a financial slavery...
I have the skills, qualifications
and personal strength align with your
need and mission,
I am the right person for the job,
remains the anthem....
Labour market with labour without freedom,
Life schedule becomes dissipate,
Remuneration with commission,
Referrals with workload,
dreams in feeble..
Time consumption without liberty,
In-depth review to decide fate..
Irrelevancy engulfed,
You're no longer needed,
Disesteem devalued..
Faded without glory..
That's just our Story ..
Categories:
disesteem, graduate,
Form: Narrative
Guilt was a thorny carpet
Laid on the ground I walked on.
Repent and redeem,
No vile soul feels a disesteem.
Whispers filling my head,
Too loud to ignore,
Pills upon pills I swallowed them all,
For a brief stolen moment,
I dove into an ocean of a blissfully quiet oblivion.
A hollow elm,
A wingless butterfly,
A shadow of what was once I.
Categories:
disesteem, anxiety, emotions, god, judgement,
Form: Free verse
Seasons Coalesce
Cycles reset
Patterns, Habits,
Evolve and regress
Exhausted
Fast for the Sabbath
Reasons to rest
Memories to regret
Sacked , accost.
Divest. Pay the clocks price
An eternal toll
Raped of life, sucked out soul.
Trapped verbal lessons, hooked with ****.
Confusing intention
I abash her with derision
Trenchant Poems
And my myopic vision.
Sick selfish sabotage
Malevolent inventions
Disesteem who I’ve become
Hate this so called home
Adeem this crooked loan.
end
10-18
Categories:
disesteem, beauty, dream, eve, life,
Form: Epyllion