Days long, nights short I find myself lost in time's arms.
I dream with eyes open, thinking about my previous life.
Let alone the tick-tock fill this open space of depression and disconnection.
Wind's breeze is my only friend;
we dance,
we talk,
and sing away with the day's aftermath.
I look through the window's eyes and further beyond the graveyard,
I see decapitated souls.
Lying on dirt beds, but locked in luxurious torture.
Without limbs and a body to guide direction,
I'm stuck in one position longing for death's scythe to pass me by.
I tremble when all eyes stare upon my quarter-being figure,
and lost with words i remain silenced, in my solitude.
Still looking upon my previous world, I gaze upon life in the open field
and dream of heaven's sweet thoughts.
Unfortunately my past life eliminated by pain and depression
had no meaning,
being restricted of God's open freedom.
Now let me frost
for I pay the cost,
of sharing solitary confinement
in locked doors.
Dreamers Dilemma
A dream can heal a broken heart
A dream can scar a soul
A dream can break a man in half
A dream can make him whole
Dreams are visions of the things
That help us understand
Dreams are visions of the things
That we once found so grand
So if you wake up from a dream
And no one hears the cries
That fade and leave a silent truth
Which somehow falsifies
All the reasons you believed
Your friends would somehow try
To save your life at any cost
Not laugh that you might die
So if you take the wisdom found
Back when you faced the end
You know if someone really cares
Enough to be your friend
So if you end up all alone
And dread your waking screams
Remember all the scars you bear
Have come from broken dreams
By: Jeremy Siedlecki
I go to sleep, to dream of you
I didn't have a clue
I think of that night
it was so bright
Tanner, Drake, and Drew to
who would have knew?
that guy I liked
held me tight
we danced and laughed
it was your special craft
you danced
you took off your pants
on the table
they gave you that lable
we were so drunk
Tanner was such a hunk
You said 'Come on, Chay, lets go"
I dream that I say "No"
thats not true though I said "Yes"
You did't even second guess
we got in your car
and went to a bar
they didn't check if we were 21
that guy called you hunny bunn
He bought us drinks
you puked in the sink
we left there
we didnt care
he didn't see the red
you bled
It was everywhere
now your nowhere
you are dead
yes thats what I said
I dream in shades gray as life passes me by, I’ve lost
the color and wonder, deeply I sigh.
Alone and in solitude, for eleven years this road I tread,
memories fade and I age, til their gone this I dread.
Institutional walls of gray and it’s system dance a jig on
my soul, so close to institutionalized, losing myself deeper
in this fold.
Violence and stringency, a crazy combination; on the surface
control, below all’s illusion.
A cry in the night from a dream of my past, nine more to go
until color at last.
But for now my seas are gray, the rain clouds too. My pen
my only avenue, for my soul I wish to soothe.
Gray clouds and rain, a constant familiar. I brood on my
thoughts; anger simmers.
Simmering to the surface like a toxic sludge. My anger spills
over, on all that is lost.
Lost in my mania, skipping along the edge. Gray and depressed,
myself I dread.
A mother's dream torn apart. Wishing that she could keep the ones that she gave birth to.
Two little girls so free and wild I long to know where they are. My babies are gone I lost
them because of mistakes that I made in the past. I miss when I was holding my girls. Never
will they know each other, never will they be in my life, because I gave them up. A dream
that I had as a child to be the mother that I never had, now I failed to do that for my first
two. Such a great joy that I had when I gave birth. Between the two labor and deliveries that
I had I don't know which one was the worst. The girls were born so lovely and beautiful, just
like me except they had their fathers's skin colors. A mother's dream to raise her own, yet
now I sit here sulking in my pain as I cry and moan because I lost them both to the state. I
had them at very young ages and I can't do anything but praise God that they have families
that love and care for them like I wish I could.