Best Shut Away Poems
on a blank canvas
i begin painting
as one builts
a great big wall
So high,
trapped in myself
Shut away from life's hurt
Dreaming of greener pastures
One with happiness
Safe in my Dreams,
An apparition
of what life
could offer
Feeling unworthy
of a place
Left with cruel words
Making one feel
bad about myself,
in the reflection
upon the ripples
a shattered illusion
on the surface breaks
Touched by
my inner most desire,
Like a child's
first steps
Happy when finding
one's feet,
Slowly learning
to trust your feelings
Smiling when they come
back again
climbing this wall nervously
Walking to the summit,
Dreaming of love
A vision
of happiness,
Escaping my prison
Staring off
into the stars
At ease
with the distance,
So close,
yet so far
Categories:
shut away, sad, stars,
Form:
Free verse
Emotions up and down,
spinning out of control,
light headedness,
fuzziness,
all of a dither,
my mind can't deliver,
such emotive thoughts.
Try to shut away in a box in my head,
they are not in charge of me,
I am in charge of them,
keeping busy is the answer,
for a mediocre happy ever after,
pretty thoughts of a life after,
but for now, living for the day I can live the life i'm after.
Categories:
shut away, hope, life,
Form:
Ballad
In a second my life changed like i could never imagine
The world was all Topsy turvy
and i a floating object in the turmoil
A simple six letter word
Thats all it took to take my stable world away
Upon that fateful day I was 15 and the date was May 12 2008
My diagnosis Hodgkin's lymphoma stage 2 B
My freedom was stolen from me
School i could no longer attend
People i could no longer see
The world was shut away from me
Chemo and Radiation were my companions
Aiding me in my time of need
But the truth in that was they were killing me more than saving
Strong of heart was I
I would not be taken down
I tried to show no fear or sorrow
And now am thought a strong young lady by many others
The most glorious day was when the cancer went away
September 28 2008 i was told
After I regained the freedom i had lost
four months later did my true story unfold
January 12 2009 I knew something was wrong
I was right I had not yet won the fight
Hodgkin's lymphoma was back to greet me
This time worse stage 4 B had me captured
A junior in high school i had been
But now once again I could no longer attend
Chemo my friend, we were reunited
I guess it missed me
This time a new component was introduced
Bone-marrow transplant, Auto stem cell
After tackling these feats I met radiation again
September 2009 i was said to be free
it was like history repeating itself
But this time i was wary
now it is July 4 2010
I am heathy, I have graduated
but the damage my six lettered fiend has reaped upon me is still here
An immune system i no longer have
My life still on pause
But i do not care
Because i know what its like to have your life dissipate without warning
Life is like a flame it can be snuffed out in a second
So remember my words
Please
Dont let any regret into your life
Dont pass a single moment by
Live love and try
Categories:
shut away, health, life, loss, recovery
Form:
Bio
I never really got the chance
To thank you
For these glasses that
Have made me see
The beauty in this world that my nocturnal spirit
Has shut away
Like the wings of a bird
Shielding itself from the scorching sun
Summer fields
Cherry trees
Lovers on freshly mown grass
Fire flies
A purple phlox
Sun-kissed petals
Clear heavens
Autumn trees
Hazelnuts
Emerald woods
Wonderful shapes dancing in a burning campfire
Warmth
White pine trees
Snow and wind
Multi-hued scarves
Hot chocolate
A kitten playing with wool
My eyes could almost tear
From seeing what has been hidden
For so long
But I could swear
The splendor is sometimes too much to bear
The aroma of strawberry fields becomes
Much too strong
Almost suffocating
The morning glories wrap my arms and legs
With their stems
The bright side begins to burn my skin
I see smiles
I see a child licking an ice-cream cone
During a hot summer's day
I see the perfection in butterflies
Leaving their cocoons
I see spring predominate the universe
I see so much until everything looks
Almost the same
Special
And beautiful
In its own way
Like the wedding gown
And the pall
I see my life
Flashing before me
The charm in this world would kill me if I saw it all
And I could swear
The splendor is sometimes too much to bear.
Categories:
shut away, natureworld, me, universe,
Form:
Free verse
What if by chance we meet, embrace once more,
And to that place we go where no one sees
Or even knows, we quietly close the door
And shut away the winter’s cooling breeze.
The scent of hyacinths still fills the hall
And welcomes us with memories of where
We both said our goodbyes and we’ll recall
Unspoken words left hanging in the air
But if we meet, my heart will surely sing
For what we were and what we might have been
When to this empty room, my love, you’ll bring
Bouquets of flowers fresh and newly green
If in this chance encounter, you are true,
We may find love returns, from where it flew
Categories:
shut away, forgiveness, hope, life, lost
Form:
Sonnet
By a Spring Fire
There is a place
Where boughs of singing birds are swaying;
Little colts with wobbly legs are playing;
And bluebonnets and paintbrushes grow.
Once my love and I rode horses, o’er
Rolling hills like rough golf courses.
So long, long ago.
Now you are gone and I grow old;
Shut away from days of gold;
And the evening memories glow,
In the fire of early Spring’s cold.
Categories:
shut away, memory,
Form:
Rhyme
Knocking on the door, can your mate come out to play?,
or is she grounded for yet another sunny day?.
Meeting up with your mates, hanging around the park,
getting up to no good, until way after dark.
Listening to music, all night party's, having a dance,
Fitti over there giving me a glance.
he was 16, i weren't a teenager yet,
oh yes my dad would hate him, you can bet on that.
Then me mum mug's me off, 'Max get down the shop'
'all this mucking around girl, it's gonna blimmin' stop!'
Shut away in my room, put on me headphones,
bit of Shalamar? maybe some Stones?.
Sharing a bedroom with 3 boys was proper manic,
everything of mine broken, me mum in a panic.
Tower block by the Thames, 2 bedroom flat,
not enough room to swing a skinny cat.
Dad was a car crusher, worked every hour god sent,
put food on the table, no money was ever lent.
mum was too proud, to sign on the dole,
working class family, full of heart and plenty of soul.
School was fun, all me mates were there,
but instead of learning, I would just sit and stare.
Dolly daydreamer by name, scatty ann by nature,
destined to be nothing but a council girl waster.
Just a little look into my life as a child growing up on a council estate in South London x
Maxine xx
Categories:
shut away, childhood, children, culture, growing
Form:
Light Verse
Perilous addiction hell bent completion deluded cohesion.
Negative infusion feathered motion, spiraling down like a crispy weathered October leaf.
Faded grasp like the winter sun in vision the same but a difference so vast
The echo of mankind never seldom to my ear, peace of mind never at cheer
Bellows and bellows of screaming lucid thought crippled by the same resort.
Wonky leg like a wonky chair bruised battered weakened and loose escaping like vaporing air.
The ripple of contained liquid just slight but a mystery to the mass I am inclined
Coned, padded, shut away, forgotten, a pressed particle of cigarette ash in a dormant
Hallway corner,
Noticed by a moment of dust filled beams of light, exhilarating in such short time
Gone again like black from night the acute jest of life, smashed glass left and unoccupied
The heart so cold like bitter urine in survival mode soggy chip squashed under foot nobody cares
Nobody’s good. Lost in a cold shockwave of pain thrown to shore different than any other
Too alien to mention too slain to fear a wondrous maze of capital esteem stagnant in movement
Pointless art all curved and pointless oh where I am and oh where do I start.
Can I awake can I resound is this reality or is it just another calamity. Insanity gone beyond
No track to unravel stability of the foundational start, just a implosion of art.
Categories:
shut away, allegory, life, mystery, ,
Form:
Free verse
Maybe in another life I would be the perfect fit
The one you can't let go
The one you will fight for till the end
The one you wouldn't have doubts about.
Maybe in another life we will have out fairytale ending
We will let ourselves enjoy the freedom of being ourselves
We won't care about who sees or hears
We will be truly honest about ourselves
Maybe in another life we will let go of our worries
Live like there is no tomorrow
Laugh like the world will never end
Do all the crazy things we used to do
Maybe just maybe we would have joy in the sorrows
Wipe away the tears that linger in our eyes
Seat by the moonlight and dream about another world
Full of only us and shut away our problems
It's no longer a maybe its a see you later
In another life though
We are soulmates who weren't ment to be
But the love will never fade away
I will love you until my heart can't anymore
Until I give up and I'm weary
Until I can't see you in the distance anymore
Or even imagine you infront of me
Oh how I loved and was loved,
My heart still beats for you my love.
Categories:
shut away, dream, heartbroken, love, sad
Form:
Free verse
I listen, and I’ll always listen because I will do anything for you, I would die to keep you safe and alive. I would do whatever to make you feel better. And so, I listen as you talk about them, these amazing friends of yours…Only some I have met. How lucky they are to have such devotion, how lucky they are to not feel the sting of betrayal and abandonment; thrust upon their spine crippling them to a state of fear, anger, and distrust.
How lucky they are to have you, how lucky I am to have you.
Do you understand, do you see just how much I love you?
Soul such as yours deserves only the best; perhaps that is where I fault, I bring upon you sadness and pain, until all you do is go silent hiding behind solid doors. Composing words of sorrow, and they stab me like a sword in the gut…Closed off, shut away from you-I cannot function like this. I lose my way, I lose everything, I cannot be kept away, please open up to me… ‘DO NOT SHUT ME OUT’ I cry…I don’t want to lose you, yet I feel as though I already have; I feel as if I never really had you all along-not truly. That everything I believed, everything I have come to know is fake. An act, a show you put on until you can no longer pretend to care anymore so when the opportunity comes along you go silent and drop me. I am left forgotten, wondering what happened…Seconds, minutes, hours go by and nothing. I lose control, I panic and my bleeding heart reacts. Maybe you did not mean it though, but maybe you did…I don’t know and I’m not sure I ever really will know and my mind spins like a top…I don’t know what to do, or say…or think. Do you even care? Did you ever care, or did you just pretend so you did not have to face me? If you were given the opportunity would you forget who I am, would you abandon me in the unforgiving tide, left alone to fight against the waves, until all I have given you-all the memories flood me until I drown, going down to the pit of nothing…? The pit of lies that you made, would it be easy to turn you back on me, leave me to fight alone this losing battle until you are no longer burdened by me…? And when I am gone, will you finally feel free?
Categories:
shut away, angst, confusion, fear, mystery,
Form:
Narrative
Shut away from the world
Hizbiz found a ghost curl'd
In his breakfast plate
This might be a bait
"An enticement", he snarled
Categories:
shut away, fun,
Form:
Limerick
Tonight as you close your eyes
You will feel the thrills of childhood rise
Things you thought you’ve left behind
Will come back to fill your mind
The beauty in very simple things
The wonder that innocent joy brings
The magnificence of the first day of spring
Like a magical ride on life’s glorious wings
Forget the burden of the day
Problems from your mind shut away
In dreamland come and play
Tonight everything will be okay
A sprinkle of dream dust is cast on you
Enter the world of dream anew
Let the child within you see the view
A gift from the Sandman to you
Categories:
shut away, imagination, life, dream, dream,
Form:
Rhyme
The Dark Poet
The poet losing touch with life
Faces fear untold
Reality just slips away
Powerless to make it stay
When his demons seize a hold
Deep dark thoughts pervade his mind,
Worms infect his brain.
Empty void of utter darkness
Shut away from light.
No one understands his pain.
Feelings twist, turn, and tangle,
Things he can’t explain,
Oozing mud and pull of death
Beckon to a place beyond.
Is he going quite insane?
Digging, delving, dread... then hope
In his troubled crown.
Memories of long ago
Things he thought he didn’t know
Walls come crashing down.
Time will tell if he will heal,
Escape this dark perdition.
Strength and courage he must have
Going down this lonely path
In search of his redemption.
~~~
Categories:
shut away, angstdark, dark,
Form:
Rhyme
Looking back on the past.
Delete ..................... Keep.
These things remind me of who I was.
The person shut away.
~The pearl of the clam.
~~Diamond in the rough.
~~~ Too vulnerable.
Categories:
shut away, caregiving, computer-internet, depression, devotion,
Form:
She saw through tear filled eyes
The kindness in his own
She heard the witness of
The miracles he'd shown
But her past was full of sin
Of brokenness and shame
That made her so afraid
To call out Jesus name
So instead, to show her love
She knew she'd have to start
By letting go of sin and self
By giving him her heart.
What is in your alabaster box?
What came to you at such a great cost?
You've held onto it so long
And coveted the pain
But Jesus wants to free you
From fear from guilt from shame
Pour it all out now
At his beautiful feet,now bare
Wash them with your tears
And dry them with your hair.
Maybe it's not past sins
you've shut away and bare
maybe it's some hurt
that you've refused to share
now is the right time
while Jesus is so near
to finally let it go
to finally shed your tears
and if you continue to
hold on so tight to your pain
you'll never know the freedom
of how your heart will change
What is in your alabaster box?
What came to you at such a great cost?
You've held onto it so long
And coveted the pain
But Jesus wants to free you
From fear from guilt from shame
Pour it all out now
At his beautiful feet,now bare
Wash them with your tears
And dry them with your hair.
You will always stumble
When you bare a heavy load
All by yourself, all alone
We can depend
on His strength and might
For He said," my yoke is easy
And my burden light"
What is in your alabaster box?
What came to you at such a great cost?
You've held onto it so long
And coveted the pain
But Jesus wants to free you
From fear from guilt from shame
Pour it all out now
At his beautiful feet,now bare
Wash them with your tears
And dry them with your hair.
Categories:
shut away, bible, faith,
Form:
Rhyme