No more than 12 years old
Sees images of women
She looks in the mirror
She doesn't see the image
Her body doesn't fit the mold
Movies, TV and magazines
Tell her she is not what they want
She is not thin
She is not beautiful
Everyday her eyes cry as she looks at who she is
The perfect her hidden within
The beautiful soul they will not let her see
Still she does not fit the mold
She feels unloved
Eating less than a cracker a day
Throwing up the scant food she eats
Her body changes
They make her up
She wears a beautiful white dress
They close the lid
Denied the perfect her
The person she should have been
She lies in eternal rest
But she is loved
She is wanted
She will be missed
Copyright © R. e. taylor | Year Posted 2008
I’m not an ego maniac
you know the type that gives others a heart attack
I get my vital nutrition
From a dietitian
Who only asks for my Submission
And he gives me the ambition
To fight back
Promises me that I will never lack.
There’s a battle every time I wake
There’s a battle in every move I make
I am Jehovah's daughter
That’s why I can walk on water
I don’t need a psychic to read my palm
I have the prophecies, of his words, on my arm
I don’t need soothsayers to give me a premonition
I have fire from heaven that is my ammunition
Everywhere I turn their speaking death
It rains down until I have nothing left
Everyone is believing a lie
How can I sit back and watch as time goes by
The devil has sung many too sleep
Wake up, men of God; you’re being slaughtered like sheep
Resist the temptation
And have a deeper appreciation
For the lives placed in your hand
Or they’ll sink like quicksand
Into the abyss of despair
God’s presence isn’t there
This is a warning in these last days
To surrender your rebellious ways
Judgment is coming whether you believe it or not
Children of Niniva repent on the spot
And the God of "Mercy" will change his mind,
He calls out, “ Is there anyone I can find
That will abandon their ways and come into the light
Put on righteousness and fight this good fight?”
Emaciated the rest of you
Has led many to extortion
Who will bow? Who will plead?
Save this generation which bleeds
Fathers gone estrange
Birthing violence that’s deranged
Suicide… the anti-Christ
Don’t you know Jesus paid the price?
By: Sabina Nicole
Copyright © Sabina Nicole | Year Posted 2013
she shuns me from embracing her these days
her brittle fragile body no longer compliant
thin skin lifeless and sagging begging for help
knowing she needs support but still so defiant
bones pressing a blanket of desperation
bringing her spirit down more every day
trying so hard to be small and invisible
how in the world did she get this way
is there hope or purpose to keep on trying
does anyone listen and know there is pain
the problem so hidden we cannot find it
faith has been taken.. emptiness remains
Copyright © Betty Bateson | Year Posted 2014
You are not a member of our family
Therefore we choose to lock you outside our door
Banishishing you to never
Never again darken our door
Your emaciated hands have lost their strength
The whispers you shout have fallen on deaf ears
We have always been stonger than you
Within your grip we have discovered our own resilience
Losing our appetite for your false promises
This pathway emerges beyond your darkness
Time deafens us to your whispers
For long enough we have been your domino effect
Feel our weight as we align ourselves against you
Our borders have been fortified
Consciencely built brick by brick
The mortar of our love extricating you from our spaces
Our new mosaic formed in light
Today is the beginning of this
That as you shrink
Our world enlarges
Until you are less
Less than nothing
Replaced by freedom
The way we are meant to be
Empowered and filled
With an appetite for living
My wife is the team leader for an eating disorder program here in Kelowna.
I wrote this as a way to empower families to align together against the disorder.
Copyright © Richard Lamoureux | Year Posted 2014
America the Worlds Hope for Peace and Prosperity Has Become A Culture of Death
How did this happen? America, how did you become a culture of death? You were
founded upon the Word of God and Jesus, the Savior of the World. The Bible says in Him we live, and move and have our being. Jesus said, “I have come to give you life and that more abundantly”! He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life; no one comes to the Father but by Him.
I realize that many bad moves and changes have taken place to bring about such
a shift of principals, morals and beliefs that have caused the fall of our society. Many things are attributed to it including, the Church in America moving away from the central theme of the Gospel, the Cross of Jesus Christ. We have moved away from the Lord, Himself, and we have placed man on the throne of our hearts instead of Christ! We have taken God out of the classrooms in our schools, and when we removed God, Satan then had the inroad to these young and tender minds and hearts of our children.
Our country has become so “self centered” that we have been touting the ideology that man is a god unto himself, and this has spread the self-centered lifestyle and has taken hold across our land. We look out for #1, what is best for you, the most convenient for you, if it feels good, do it.
Wanting to become like “Twiggy” the concentration camp model that caused many women to die trying to get their emaciated bodies to look like her and developing anorexia in the process. And in the 70’s, if being pregnant was inconvenient for the mother, go get an abortion, who cares, it is “my body”, no madam, it isn’t your body that you are killing, you are killing an innocent human being, instead, you said, it is my figure, my fun, my time, my party and you become a “god” in your own eyes and you took the life away from your own baby, and now, we have as a nation, I believe killed well over 100 million babies, I say that many because, the killing keeps taking place but the numbers have not been increasing! Also, the babies that these babies would have had… no one is counting the whole generation that was slaughtered.
Now we are a nation where our youth is dressing in black clothing participating in the “walking dead”, killing each other at schools and on the street, watching “Zombies”, playing violent electronic games feeding on death continually!
When will this stop??? It won’t without a blood bought, devil stomping, sin killing Holy Ghost revival! Without Christ in our lives, a personal relationship with our Creator, every soul in this world will either end up in Heaven if they choose to accept what the Lord Jesus Christ has done for mankind through His own blood, or will end up in Hell burning in the Lake of Fire for an eternity! They will literally breathe fire forever! Wouldn’t that be enough to convince you to choose life? Death is not pretty, it is horrible, messy, ugly, and putrid but life in Christ is beautiful and abundant. It is fulfilling, lovely, pure but, only if you know Jesus personally. It is really up to us, and I pray that as you read this narrative poem that you will choose life, life in Christ, ask Him today to come into your life and forgive your sins!
Written by: Marilyn S. Jennings
August 8, 2015
Copyright © Marilyn S Jennings | Year Posted 2015
Sheltered in the south of the south,
its culture breathed out the dance of love to the world.
as the historic natural park for gigantic dinosaurs
with the earth’s tail attached to its field
and a familiar friend to continental extremities
both in elevations and in the measure of cold and heat.
Even with its tender voice and closed influence
its hands have contributed
to the beautiful jewelries of the globe’s spark.
The first scores of Cristiani’s animation
and pioneering crime’s neck breaker
through the Axe of finger-printing;
also a well watered green yard for cosmetic manipulations
but yet marred with Anorexia and battles of the mind.
So much flowers with few thorns
classify this blessed home with sons like Diego and Lionel.
Copyright © Funom Makama | Year Posted 2015
She was my living doll.
I noticed that
When she blinked
Her rolling eyes would click
Like a camera shutter
On a very long exposure
Giving the onlooker the impression
That she was very slow
But she was never negative
Her life was in full colour
One eye was slightly out of kilter
She seemed to look straight through me
And out onto other side.
The far side.
The edge of the envelope
Far beyond the self sticky fold down bit.....
What was going through her mind?
It was difficult to tell
Maybe she thought that her life with me
Was just a bad dream
And that she would wake up any moment now
And I would be gone
Or maybe she really did love me
It was difficult to tell
Her knee caps were fixed
And she could not turn her wrists
Waist or hips
Which made her bob a long
Like a sea buoy
Swaying from port to starboard
And back again
Her hair never seemed to grow
And as the years passed by
She did not grow old at all
She remained the same, but
She suffered badly with her back
Because she couldn’t bend her knees
It was always me that loaded up
The washing machine
I never saw her cry
Never saw her sigh
She was always smiling
That half yawned grin
But over the years
Developed a jaundice skin
Then along came Barbie
She was our beautiful baby
Long blond hair
Like her mum
Her eyed- fixed stare
To infinity and beyond
At the sheriff Woody doll
Perched on the crib
She never cried
She suffered though
Anorexia, I never saw her eat
Her mum would comb her hair
For hours on end
It used to drive me round the bend
Twenty two years later
Was in the Doll’s hospital
Doctor Ken who also could not bend his knees
Shook his head
And told me that she’d soon be dead
As she lay there in her bed
I kissed her cold lips
She looked through me and said
I know it must have been hard for you
A human living in a Doll’s world
Copyright © Tony Kirk | Year Posted 2016
Born in Cincinnati that buckeye state
January 13th 1959 – 57+ years to date
A tangle of arms & legs testing lungs, which sounded great
He kind of resembled a misshapen octopus with oval pate
Glowering inxs of deep purple from blue mood being irate
Thrust out the womb of Harriet Harris whom Boyce did date
After courting this youngest Kuritsky kin whose ill-fate
Whisked by grim reaper, which demise she did hate
For her being imbued with vim and vinegar til illness ate
Away her je nais sais quois personable maternal trait
Evident during my boyhood reflected by her son of late
As he too inches closer to his mortality and Hades gate
Aware that each day ought to be cherished as the rate
Of time courses down that zip line where grim reaper does wait
Attired in brand name hoodie swinging scythe across oblate
Spheroid i.e. terrestrial firmament – though many years some great
Yet to be lived – trying to recapture childhood bliss before freight
Train on a collision course toward self-destruction ala tete a tete
With Anorexia Nervosa as thy then coveted deadly mate
A brutal hellish spiral down into abysmal depths of despair did create
Indelible psychological affects undermined existence I now equate
writ horrendous emotional, physical and social upon head of mate
Pledged his troth (almost 2 decades ago), which spouse doth berate
For lack of expressed concern and attests schizoid psychic slate
irrevocably seared and stunted natural development where I rate
prepubescent, early adulthood mental illness did grate
Against once boisterously playful innocent boy crushed potentate
Only male heir from me deceased mother who tried to extirpate
Mailer daemons who forged suicide pact and via voice did dictate
Albeit without success, yet decry forsaken innate
Experiences with female relationships lured my own poisoned bait!
Copyright © matthew harris | Year Posted 2016
She put a suicide note in my coat
She's in deep pain like the titanic
But I feel I can be her life boat
I can't respond to a death letter
So I put my feelings in this poem I wrote.
Sincerely I hope
You live with that deep quote
I know about the anorexia
How you force it through your throat
You and I at 17
Played the broken social scene
While others laughed you were the only one who got what I mean
Time stopped in 2010
You had lost all your weight that's when
It cut me knowing I could never get you whole again.
Copyright © James Ntsane | Year Posted 2015
Medical Conditions of Cartoon Characters
By Elton Camp
Barbie and Ken look just right
Cartoon characters are no delight
There is old Porky Pig, if you please
Obviously he has Parkinson’s disease
And just as soon as you see her
You know Olive Oyl has anorexia
Attention deficit disorder has Daffy Duck
Unless he’s treated, he’ll be out of luck
Elephantiasis afflicts sailor Popeye
His arms and legs you can tell it by
Pepe LePew suffers from sexual addiction
Of that fact, there can be no contradiction
Then there’s Sylvester the black & white cat
A severe lisp surely makes him talk like that
There are others who’ll doubtless come to mind
Whose bad medical problems it isn’t hard to find
Copyright © Elton Camp | Year Posted 2011
Calculating and cruel
It poses as your friend
A sense of achievement.
Jealously guarding the relationship
Until it infiltrates
Every cell of your being
And claims you
As its own.
Copyright © Joanne Cook | Year Posted 2007
To: Mandy Jo
She called me her friend. She was one of the few.
She saw in me things that no one else knew.
I was backward and shy, a chess club bore.
I had tape on my glasses. Need I say more?
She was one of the “popular” kids at the school.
But she crossed the line, broke an unwritten rule.
Intrigued by her interest, seduced by her smile,
she freshened my outlook and polished my style.
She taught me to soar like an eagle would fly.
I gave her a shoulder when she needed to cry.
We promised that no matter where life would lead,
we’d always “come running” if ever in need.
She married a friend and moved far away.
Her homesick heart was begging to stay.
With nowhere to turn and no friends to find,
she created a place to escape in her mind.
With an inner-rebellion that raged deep inside,
she barely resembled that beautiful bride.
Her body was ravaged. A self-induced crime.
She’d withered away in such a short time.
She looked in the mirror and actually said,
“I’m so over weight. I wish I were dead.”
Prophetic words from the shell of a soul,
who engaged in a battle and lost all control.
As I ran down the hall to the emergency door,
a shake of his head said, “She’s with us no more.”
Anguish screamed out at this undeserved fate.
My promise was broken. I’d shown up too late.
I wanted to tell her but I was too scared.
I’d practiced the words that never were shared.
Why didn’t she stop? Why couldn’t she see?
Why didn’t I help her like she had helped me?
I saw in her things that no one else knew.
She called me her friend, but it wasn’t true.
In honor of Amanda Jo Abel (Carnegie)
Unfortunately, this is a true story of a very dear friend of mine. Anorexia is a devastating
and hard to understand disease. I do understand that there was nothing I could do, it doesn’t
help. The memories of her beautiful spirit does. Thanks Mandy, I’ll see ya' someday.
Copyright © Kevin Pace | Year Posted 2010
my stomache burns
i do not want to eat
he says i shouldnt
he stairs with disgust
i look away with shame
after every meal
i run to that bathroom
..i gag myself
letting out all my anger
all my frustration
..all my hurt
i walk out with a smile
a smile ,hiding pain
this is too much
he finds pleasure in my pain
pleasure in my tears
..in my silent cries
Copyright © alize walker | Year Posted 2010
To the person with a stammer:
You will be a public speaker one day.
To the person in a wheelchair:
You will run a marathon one day.
To the person who is homosexual:
You will have a honeymoon one day.
To the person who is depressed:
You will be content one day.
To the person being bullied:
You’ll be the world’s leader one day.
To the person with anorexia:
You’ll not judge one day.
To the person with no home:
You’ll own a mansion one day.
To the person in hospital:
You’ll be a doctor one day.
To the person with a dream:
You’ll live your dream one day.
Copyright © Lewis Raynes | Year Posted 2015
Maybe I'm an old soul
The things that should appeal to me are not interesting
Some probably think that they should be
I'm in the hip-hop generation, but current creations make me believe
that this world has no morality
Scantily-clad women dancing on the hood of cars
Beautiful women with no intelligence become superstars
Anorexia is acceptable, and should be detectable
The wickedness in this world is incredible
Men are leaving women with children to raise alone
Little children wake up and wonder where has daddy gone
Drugs are accessible at any given time of the day
The only thing that we can do is pray
Music isn't music anymore, and I listen for true creativity
It seems real music is an endangered species
Men enter prison, and some never see freedom again
We must think before making descisions
I'm an old soul in a young body
Even though I have made some mistakes, I am still somebody
To the youth of today, I must say that we are the future
We cannot push aside the God who our country was formed by
Meterialism and wild, riotous living will only lead to financial and
What are you doing to make this world better
This old soul is being wise and humble.
Copyright © Keeshler pittman | Year Posted 2007
With my fusion of lyrics and rhythm
There is no confusion that I’m refusing to simply be disillusioned
With intellectual distribution
I do not have hesitation to let you give me recognition
Realising that my vision is empowered by my necessitation of not wanting to simply be the illest
But the illest who conveys parables continuation
Guaranteed expectation of never being word stranded, inspiration
Protection from all lyric dieticians, word anorexia, rhythmic bulimia
Representation of obese lyrical content, larger than life
Not afraid to speak what’s on my mind
Plantation of human strength to express ones feelings with the spoken word
Avoiding repetition of past mistakes
Promotion of inner strength to flourish
Installation of anti-verbal abuse
Living your own dream with motivation and authority on ones lips
Inspiration being drawn from the depths of self
Allowing others to march behind me
You are not motivated?
Self-pity embraces you
Self-pity moulds you
Allow yourself to blossom
Your uniqueness is rare
Only you possess that rareness
And you will be surprised the person you will become…
Just look at me…..
Copyright © Lina Mthethwa | Year Posted 2013
The smell sprays spreading
Of delicious food
From a palace above
In a poor hut bellow
Smoke of boiling water
Potatoes for hunger
Serving variety of tastes
Empty plates wait
Impatient children yawn
Sound waves of two cries prang together
One for hunger
One for objection
Udaya R. Tennakoon
Copyright © Udaya R. Tennakoon | Year Posted 2016
Each weight increase signals defeat
never failing to leave you blue.
For when you strive to stay petite
every pound's repulsive to you.
You stare in the mirror of truth
scrutinizing each ounce of fat.
And seeking the girl of your youth
you can’t believe you look like that.
Skipping breakfast you skimp on lunch
and might require medical care.
Yet you think no one has a hunch
though your eyes are filled with despair.
Like malnutrition’s telltale trace
regurgitation cuts no slack.
And you display a furrowed face
taunt skin and a skeletal back.
Mixing denial with deceit
you cannot find solace in sleep.
For when you're starving, yet can't eat
anorexia’s roots run deep.
Copyright © Emile Pinet | Year Posted 2017
I am a ghost, drifting aimlessly from place to place.
All will power is sucked out of me, like a black hole in my soul.
My two cents are worth nothing in this world.
I am merely hidden behind a mask,
Dodging this never-ending path of fun house mirrors.
The mental battle is relentless,
Creating illusions that deep down I know aren’t true.
A sham, a mock of my former self.
He is the force clutching me tightly,
Ceasing me from all aspects of reality.
He is anorexia.
Compared to him, I am weak.
I am worth nothing.
I resist his force to no avail,
Only to stumble and crumble once again.
Pointing fingers does no good.
Trust me, I’ve tried.
But no one is to blame.
Not family, not society, not myself.
Yet each day is a new beginning.
An opportunity to change.
An opportunity to prosper.
Along with an opportunity to fail and give in.
He is charismatic,
Telling me I am helpless without him.
I trusted him, but no longer.
No longer will I obey.
No longer will I be defeated.
No longer will I surrender to his selfish commands.
When he presses me to give up,
Ambition cries, “Keep fighting.”
I struggle to my feet,
Longing for closure.
I fall short again,
Knowing if I strive to achieve,
Knowing if I aim to succeed,
Knowing if I risk failure, it could happen.
Yet without attempt, there is no prosperity.
I will not give in.
I will not back down.
I will not lose.
I will escape this war triumphant,
No matter the cost.
Copyright © Nicole Shuster | Year Posted 2011
T h I n
What are they selling you
In those multi-flavored packets
Of completely free fat
Of skin and bone
Their last resort of your motherhoods
Guilt of your womb
For the rest of the world
Has no inkling of
What you lost in those
Behind your beauty
Now only skin deep
Is all you want to be
You fell for the diet
And the lifeless tailor made dummies
Of Gay dress makers
Who dress you
How they want to be
So t h I n
Is a disease of the 21st century
Everything about your woman-inity
Turned into the wire proportions
Of a coat hanger
It’s your own fault
Your dependence on makeup
And push up
Corsets history and false eye lashes
To disguise who you are
The drug of vanity
And given to you
All those slick shinny fronts of
Show you forever young
T h I n
Of tint and dust
All the beauty
Which defines your life
Defined in four alphabetical
T h I n
Will you be on a diet
For the rest of your life
Copyright © colin mitchell williams | Year Posted 2009
Anorexia, weight loss, fever
Frail frame of weakness shiver
With collapse of castle of immunity
Opportunistic infections eager
TO prey on the victim
Whose eyes in deep socket gleam
Kaposis Sarcoma, trauma, coma
Human Immuno Virus' melodrama
Call it the battle in the bloodstream
Plethora of symptoms ranging from
Candidiasis to Herpes simplex
Which render the phenomenon complex
Elisa Western blot and CD4 Count
Diagnosis extorts substantial amount
AIDS Patients deserve top priority in
medicare for their suffering and agony are rarest rare
Posterity will not forgive us
If in handling AIDS we sound frivolous
Copyright © nandlal pancholi | Year Posted 2007
Listening to the rhythm of the beat
I move my feet the speakers
Blowing loud every time we meet
When i speak it seems like
My flow is so sick i can't eat
Anorexia dementia from my lack of similac
Crack back to snap back i bounce back
Then sit down fall back an relax
Copyright © Cheyenne Shelby | Year Posted 2012
I have this friend, no scratch that, I USED to have this friend.
I first met her when I was 14.
She was cool. She made me feel strong, beautiful, powerful;
She made me feel like I was in control.
Funny how I thought I could control HER.
When I was with her, I felt invincible.
She gave off the impression that I could always control her,
And it felt good.
We were best friends, did everything together...
Except eat. We never really did that together.
Sometimes we fought.
The fights usually lasted a few months, maybe longer.
During those fights, we didn't do anything together.
Thinking back now, those were amazing times.
I'm now 18, and I haven't talked to her for about 5 months.
We had the biggest fight shortly after I started college.
The fight happened because I came to some realizations;
I was never truly in control of her.
She made me think that, but, SHE was in control of ME.
She didn't make me strong or powerful; instead I was weak and hopeless.
Like I said, I don't talk to her anymore, but
I can still feel her, hear her calling my name.
Crazier yet, a lot of people know her.
Some are still under her control, but others broke free.
My advice to them is to get out, get help, talk to someone.
When she is gone, you'll never miss her.
I don't, and it's been 5 months since I've talked with
written about my battle with anorexia.
Copyright © Nicole Beesley | Year Posted 2012
It’s a battle everyday, from the moment my feet hit the floor.
It’s not a habit I’m proud of, but a sickness I can’t ignore.
I know I’m my hardest critic, and my worst enemy.
You are taking me over piece by piece, and this will be the death of me.
I should know it’s not important, just a number on a scale.
It’s me versus you now, and I hope someday to prevail.
I’m starving my body and also my soul.
I see you sickness, you laugh, because you are in control.
I cannot face you alone; I know I’m not that strong.
You’ve been hiding around corners, waiting to appear all along.
You are now taking me over completely, as I knew you would do.
Maybe there is hope for me somehow, and then I can control you.
Copyright © Tabitha Wuthrich | Year Posted 2011
No one loves me
I cry for help and there is no
This is what I knew it would be
I shouldn't have believed in
They told me they would stay
Told me that they wouldn't
But of course, it came, that day
I should have never believed
I always had hope
I still kind of do
I just don't know how to cope
So I hide my hope that way
they never knew
After they left
I've been getting worse
These voices and demons are
They were the once that hurt
me, of course
They tell me to do things
Things you would be ashamed
I need to tell you something,
This is the day I have been
I have depression, and anxiety,
The possible bulimia and
Please, don't run away from me
I can still understand, I don't
Please, stay my friend
Don't leave me alone
I don't want this to end,
It's been too long, I've been in
Copyright © Ana Jusino | Year Posted 2013