Apprehension Poems

Each book in my library must be read, each one, each and every one,
vagrant, homeless papers must find a forever home, I must
edit, amend, revise, reword and condense a poem-
Rattled, I search for my keys, oh collywobbles!
Yearning for tranquility instead...Read More

Battle lines drawn
 Stance firm
 Weapon in hand.
 I step into the war zone 
 I'm rigid. Already defeated.
 So much to see.
 All the red.
 I grip, I breathe, I brace.
 Everything in me says turn and go. You've...Read More

FREE VERSE FEVER

Alas, and alack, there is a lady for whom I have formed an attraction.  She has an aura about her that leaves me aching to have her in my arms.   I am astounded that I...Read More

Recovery from within takes longer than expected I noticed from the start
I'm growing weary of going through trials of endless letdowns in heart
Underneath the dust and dirt of past irrational phases,
The truth will give you freedom beyond words and phrases
My...Read More

As with all preludes
there is much mummery and mockery,
a delirious glee to be 
just below the overhanging wave,
yet dry enough to prance
and mimic the oncoming monster.

Now the windowpane is dampened
by a stupor of uprooted clouds,
if you touch its cold bare...Read More

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The stones were many, 
though still he climbed, 
dismantling the mortar crusted wall,
leaving rubble in his wake
as he made his way to the top
Breathless, this world beyond 
the border clung to its silence, 
imprisoned by apprehension tightly 
binding a heart...Read More

The enemy draws near
I will not shed any tears,
For I'm stronger than fear
My cup is filled with cheers

The ugly beauty inside me will see me through
This shame and calamity that ended up in rue
The ugly beauty inside you is the...Read More

Their forms have leaked into my mind;
women who have become
interchangeable body parts 
in a chemical reaction I have with myself.

A female once undressed with a smile
seeps through closed lids,
another woman, once passed on a street
lived for years as a reoccurring...Read More

Doubly twisted
Hating thine existence
tremors of a neurotic hand
Violent and bitter
Consumed by Ashen sands

Like the phoenix 
I’m reborn
Rebranded
Undoubtedly divine
My wings transform to arms
My beak into lips

I walk amongst the giants of the land 
Hands stretch outwards towards yours
Like a Superman in...Read More

On All Hallows Eve I was home all alone,
And the wind 'round the eaves gave an eerie moan.
Outside my window the moon shone bright,
And I saw something strange in the pale moonlight.

Out on the lawn in the shadows was lurking,
A...Read More

    AMOUR 

    Firmament addressed clouds asking
    not to assemble in array 
   and alarmed aggressive adamant arrogant tempest
   not to be tempted to attack,
  ...Read More

There was love and sorrow
We shared the good and bad
Never thinking of tomorrow
We only thought of what we had
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There was kindness and cruelty
We had the dysfunction thrown in
Not that we were really suffering
We knew the meaning of friendship
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There was acceptance...Read More

He’s alive inside me, where my heart beats
I feel His love guiding me through it all
There is never a question that I yearn to ask
That He doesn’t answer with a tenderness
That helps me feel reassured of His compassion

He always offers...Read More

If I weren’t afraid, 
I’d sail toward shores of safety
where pebbles surfacing the
tides give peace to my troubled
heart;
courage bleeds with fear and I 
am still longing to be confident

and I would try to forgive,
if I weren’t afraid-
for it has been...Read More

              If I weren't afraid,
        full of apprehension and fear;
      and I did not always...Read More

        If I weren't afraid I'd have unwrapped 
              the barricade I tightly twined
      ...Read More

How many years I have remained
silent and sullen, and all in vain,
as abiding woes and spirit drained
languish in loss, uncertain of gains.

Addicted or destined? 
I've tried to abstain.
Could I disappear, 
would demons be slain?

I think I will stay and write...Read More

Standing all alone for an unknown time,
The Caracal pistol in my right hand was fully loaded
But I couldn’t fire a shot.
Half choked by a rising paroxysm of rage,
And half-suffocated by his triumph,
I stared unseeingly but he was still there.

I should...Read More

Along some bank of ambiguity.
Isolated while in wonder,
I lacked motivation.
Consequently, I preferred to be someplace different.
I perceived myself wandering near the banks,
Concerning one Tiber River in Rome.
"What is behind me,
Is not in front of me!"
Snickering, I proceeded onward.
Moreover, moments diminished,
And...Read More

Give me something white 
Something close to nine 
Bring me out what’s in 
And a little bit of sin
Put your fingers in my head 
Kneel before your perfume god
Shut the things that make you feel 
Open wide your pure disease...Read More

In the forest of my mind
Between the trees and sunlit glades,
There are paths I dare not take
Hidden, somewhere in the shade.

Sometimes I glimpse fleeting shadows
Apprehension floods my mind,
At arms length I keep such thoughts
Afraid to face what I may find.

So...Read More

And that is why... this platform is here for answers they can't deny...
It's a truth within a complexity that is standing high...
Let us follow the roots and explore the depths of its grand design...
Cause every line that's said is movement,...Read More

There’s a bluestone building near the Calder, east of Castlemaine,
One hundred yards back off the highway, beyond a tree filled lane. 
For one hundred years this building stood alone at Faraday
serving as the schoolhouse where, the kids would learn and...Read More

There is an awe in the soul 
When travelling across the desert’s night.
Silence except for the rhythmic roll,
Signs that light and go dark with the flight.

Stars brilliant, saucer-sized 
Against the darkest blue,
Still apprehension in the loneliness
Of desert’s nightly hue.

Saguaro cacti’s...Read More

Growing up he had this dream…to be a millionaire…
He’d live in a beautiful house, 
drive a fancy car 
and have wealth beyond compare.

He’d skate through a life of happiness, never wear a frown
There’d be no reason to be sad…for he’d...Read More