Written: January 21, 2024
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Its lack of meaning is puzzling
The smile on my face
The pure one is evanescent
I ditched you in afar space
Nobody cares of my anguish
Or even witness my tears
They presume I'm laughing
Yet I regret not having you here
Nobody grasps how inure it is
They believe me to be fearless
I'm told it won't harm me
Yet, I suppose this is witless.
Vivid feelings for you turn idle
They believe I was set free
Still, it's as if chains bind me
I am tangled in the mystery
Nobody feels I need you badly
They expect I can handle it alone
But they don't grasp I'm bawling
In a state of utter lassitude
Today, I lost something dear
I lost something unreal
The core of my soul has left lately
My loss has devastated me
My beliefs have vanished
Once I felt adducible, I lost
I lost my core convictions
In sadness, I cry—why me?
Written: August 29, 2023
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In a world of normal minds, they say,
As thoughts are bound in an adducible way,
A crucial realm of wisdom, often quoted,
Resides in books, yet remains unnoted.
What matters to those commonsensical souls?
Who dread leaving their safe zones of control,
Who adheres to the standard despite harm,
A parody of crucial concepts is not a psalm.
Where imagination thrives,
Ordinary minds bear daring dives,
There lies the beauty of being unconfined,
To the limits of what's deemed normal, defined.
For in the realm of crucial views to foresee,
There is none here that is subject to a decree,
No restrictions on what can be said or done,
No evaluation; no need to comply or stun.
Here, vital ideas turn into comedy,
A playful dance of ideas and absurdity,
Where seriousness waxes a giggling matter,
And the mundane transforms into laughter.
So let us stray from the path well-trodden,
Embrace the unconventional and broaden
Our horizons beyond the ordinary,
In the wit of key views, clarity is a corollary.
The rain will pour down
from the grey clouds above,
but I am confident that I will not succumb to it.
I will not dissolve or be overwhelmed by lost love.
My heart is soft and sensitive,
and I am capable of experiencing deep emotions.
However, if someone were to leave me,
I am strong enough to handle it
and won't crumble.
I am adducible that the sun will rise,
the birds will sing,
and even if my heart is hurting,
I will persevere.
I feel utterly nothing.
Written: May 18, 2023
History has been obliterated
disturbing the harmony
pages have been smoothed
putting an emphasis on bravery
they wonder if I've been alone
I laugh and nod my head
I was loved and I loved
I laughed, danced, drank, and smoked
I've received scorching love letters
I cherish adducible recollections
the past is irrelevant to them
my wonderful life.
Written: January 13, 2023