You Would Have Had To Have Been There To Understand

I was only ten I've doubled since then I remember all that happened In a manic way, I can't help but laugh when I think about the clothes line strung across the dining room the family portrait that you made to be without you We went separate ways, that's all fine and dandy But couldn't you have checked in to ask about me I know I said I didn't want for you to come around but my emotions were a mess Barely split apart and another stood in that grave now I didn't want to see her and you know the rest I struggled to survive, hospitals knew me by name Are you amazed that I'm alive? You should be, I had some close calls Where were you for it all? Counting change in a jar You were living high and mighty Threw your keys down in the bar Can I say was a bit unsightly I did everything not to be you growing old As I sat in my room with black mold I can wink with both eyes and put my knees down when I eat sick of trying to try to have you by my side The blood only runs so deep All I ever wanted was you proud of me Until you want something stable I'll be pushing on strong Write me when you find time and are able I have to move on