Why Did You Go?

What if I was prettier? What if I was skinnier? What if I was smarter? What if I looked more like you instead of my mother? Would you have stuck around then? Would you have been the father every girl is supposed to have? I’ve grown up a lot since you last saw me, you probably wouldn’t even recognize my face You will never know the person I will become or what I do with my life There are times when I wonder if you’re among the many people I pass each day I will never understand why you left or why you’ve never tried to find me I tell myself your dead just to feel better about myself Was it something I did? I long to know who you are everyday of my life But something’s I will just never know