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WHO AM I

WHO AM I I am a woman of abundance, not of material possessions; but more of my gifts or talents, traits or qualities, temperament or mental and physical characteristics. Parts of me that made the woman I become. At this time in my life, I am also a free spirited woman sharpening and enjoying my talents in writing poetry, dancing, singing, drawing and creativity. I am a thankful woman for my own traits or qualities that were developed from my tumultuous life experiences and were also strengthened going through my own path of life. I am a content woman accepting myself for knowing my temperament or mental and physical characteristics, as well as my strengths and weaknesses. Being where I am right now was not easy. Looking back when I was a little girl, I was raised by my Mommy and was told about my mother or Mama, her sister. All I knew then was that my Mommy loved me unconditionally and I saw her as kind, giving, loving, hard working woman helping her parents financially. She took me to her work sometimes to show me around, where I danced and sung, as well as conversed with her co-workers, who found that I spoke beyond my age. She had this incredible faith and belief in me that made me confident and self-assured. My grandfather loved and adored me. He was hard working, helpful and kind. My grandmother loved and taught me manners. I also had Lola Itang, my grandmother’s cousin, who loved me and let me be a helper in her stores, when I was six for I was good in Arithmetic. Their love, support and belief in me made me believe in myself and made me aware that I am self-motivated, head strong, driven, intuitive and good in problem solving. They gave me the foundation for hard work. Five months before turning seven, my parents and two brothers came to live with us and everything changed. Having a Mommy and Mama brought confusion, discomfiture to my little mind. In silence, I questioned why my mother gave me, why she did not care about me and did not pay attention to me when she was living with us. Yet, she started giving me responsibilities of the oldest child to look after my brothers and helped her with a newborn. I saw the unfairness of the world at a very young age through my own mother, who is not a loving, giving woman. Who expects everybody to do things for her. She is the opposite of my Mommy. I vowed to myself then to never be like her. My grandfather died when I was ten. My Mommy and grandmother moved to the city and I was left with my parents. I went to the city on the week-ends alone to spend time with my Mommy. The two hour drive in the bus each way made me rely on my instincts to be safe and I developed independence. My mother’s cold treatment made me resilient, adaptable to her coldness and to my Mommy’s warmth and opened my eyes to reality. Life can be easy and wonderful, as well as harsh, rough, raucous. Feeling loved, adored and encouraged and seeing acts of kindness, unselfishness, hard work made me appreciative and hold on and pass these values to my children. These values helped me develop my perceptions of awareness, understanding and discernment and institute my philosophies, such as my attitude, knowledge or critical thinking, moral principles, spiritual values, purpose and vision in life. My perceptions and philosophies in life made me honor and respect my parents no matter what and showed them my love. My mother’s inability to give me love is her issue. The perceptions and philosophies I hold drive me to spread positivity through poetry by uplifting, motivating, encouraging others to give their all on what they do to bring out the best in them and inspiring to reach peace, contentment and happiness for these are decisions and it is up to them to decide. 11/16/20 Silent One It's Part Of Me-Life And The Perceptions And Philosophies You Hold

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Date: 11/18/2020 3:25:00 AM
- Congratulations on your great 2nd place in the contest, Marilene :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)
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Marilene Evans
Date: 11/18/2020 8:52:00 AM
Thanks, Anne-Lise. I'm blowing my hugs to you.
Date: 11/17/2020 9:59:00 AM
Congratulations on your placement in the contest..
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Marilene Evans
Date: 11/17/2020 10:47:00 AM
Thanks so much. My poem was too long; but, could not shorten it. Afraid it would not convey what I wanted to say. Have a great day.