Where Art Thou Anonymous Benefactor To Offer Me Succor

Where art thou anonymous benefactor...to offer me succor? Ah... methinks legal tender could be a boon to help me bolster mein kampf with necessary material equipage, which prospect to acquire essential commodities sabotaged at the altar of gullible travails, thus perhaps thee could make a contribution to mine gofundme page. Castaway stranded on figurative deserted island pitted with absolute zero salvation, sole recourse finds scant consolation with prayer lifetime atheist draws futile faith within himself grudgingly accepting feeble accomplishments ditto permanent estrangement among kith and kin tortured more punishingly versus death sentence of choice: firing squad, gallows, guillotine... nostalgically sentimentally, and zealously yearning fore gone girl(s) of mine, one spouse two grown offspring long since severed emotional home ties even when under same roof appalled, embarrassed, jarred particularly regarding good for nothing hang dog looking papa, mentally unfit father, who wrought misery upon heads he begat chronically dirt poor Mainline moocher never earning a bloody cent claiming psychological disability (verity substantiated with professional assessment attests to psychological mental illness probably present during inchoate biological development in utero, and most definitely congenital) unfortunate no supportive resources, thus experiencing grievous incalculable relentless scapegoat treatment - me no kidding inadvertently subjected with cruel, diabolical, exponential sucker punches while riding the bus sitting stone temple pilot faced during class, belittled, defeated, framed unfairly as spitball culprit during eighth grade mathematics with Missus Labosh subsequently painfully shy lad threateningly harangued, and nearly paddled courtesy Methacton Junior High School principal Mister Clock believe me you, aye remained mum about said incident til...this moment, not surprising since every unpleasantry suppressed unwittingly festering within psyche in tandem with threatening rapier sarcasm ostracizing jibes cumulative wrath unwaveringly smoldering, passively brooding, visualizing punching meanies, screaming... wanting to kill - sublimated hurts glowering, exploding... decades later - more often surfacing unannounced at odd times venting bile at wife directly, and barking at deux daughters subjecting innocent progeny with mine anger, or rerouting, harboring, channeling... pathological addiction answering and posting personal classifieds, yours truly guilty attempting to appease call of wild at mental, physical, and spiritual expense additionally setting poor paternal example accompanied with detached avoidance maybe costing yours truly king's ransom and/or receiving my just desserts, yes? Thus yours truly imagines whizzing backward at light speed to reverse engineer and rejigger space/time continuum many stupid blunders that cost me being knocked out cold courtesy rock em sock em life size robots compromising opportunities the figurative ball slipped out of my court bungled, fumbled, mulcted courtesy naiveté I did excede. Analogous to albatross greater than weight Atlas shrugged, severely over burdening fountainhead, yours truly intermittently wavered, sputtered, petered... out bumped uglies fumphered, rutted, née languished along since birth, (possibly while in utero, or even moment of conception nada so thoroughly good by George) or well resigned dirty deeds done dirt poor deeply grooved within very self restricted comfort zone, eventually digging deep black hole sun, infinite void everywhere exit prohibited, whence twilight o' mine waning existence awakened sober inescapable realization impossible mission to garner je nais ne quois joie de vivre, thus officially reeling courtesy psychological angst (strumming), whereby galactic dash board pluck pitted against frantic ethereal desperation) eek clip sing el sol lure rays refracted back rendering blind did as a bat sightless wayward son helplessly, rustling grimly, futilely groping, lumbering, resigning, scarce tenacity clutch slipping automatically bing foisted transcendent state, where absolute zero soundcloud bereft succor – meadow fore enshrouds hermetically sealed turin soul (mine) cocooning grubby human forever pinwheeling within otherworldly realm timelessly suspended within infinite void n'er aging, rather regressing toward infantile state, unable to distinguish familiarity after aye promise never tug heave fanta see piquing curiosity acronym spelled out regarding above soda describing bubbling sensation "**** And Never Touch Again," red alert universal emergency advisory button commencing countdown to Armageddon, but subsequently resign quintessential pregnant outcome housing grimacing deathstill blackness unbeknownst to constitute afterlife, or less disconcerting, disheartening, disenchanting... prospect namely imperfectly square discombobulated chaos betokens palatable alternative, perhaps revelation (cryptically spelled courtesy Chinese fortune cookie) less dim sum more tolerable conclusion possibly incorporates being rezoned, repurposed, reassigned... within parallel universe fast D'Cell rating indicative approaching beginning space/time continuum, where cosmos concentrated into microscopic speck sagely, taste fully, gingerly... handled... courtesy garden variety budding fubar *****sapien. An armature linkedin to robotic divine creator, who never tired plying matter into big bang dang boomerang contraption only to release stretched material with frisson cold snap, crackle, and pop indiscriminately, haphazardly, gamely... flicked teensy weensy itty bitty cosmic dross - poofing into immeasurable shift shaping said vast bajillion mile wide instant karma credit witnessed umpteenth birth expanding into former vacuum of nothingness simulating an all encompassing immense awesome kaleidoscope when viewed thru virtual reality goggles all the while frustrated wordsmith toying with incomprehensible far out mind boggling notion defying elaboration.