When I Was Young

Darkness, shadows, raining, storming. I liked to pretend I perfectly crafted these bleak, tired ideas. When I was a stupid kid. As if no one has ever drawn a picture in pencil, so that there is no color. As if there is no piece of art that is gray with rain in the background that anyone would care about. I guess I just like to recycle the same, boring concepts. Just letting my mind tumble, over and over. Letting each iteration wear me out slightly more each time. Drawing more lazily and sloppily with time. So they will realize that I’m suffering, but in a cool new way. But no. The teacher always picks the drawings with a sun in the corner and smiling families. Those are the kids that everyone likes. That’s why I always carried a sketch pad. And never tore anything out.