Whatever

Where are you? You happy I do hope so I'd understand if I treated you rough, gone against your back or didn't express enough. Was not the case just unfollowed, that is all, I did not sever the tie. Whatever. I have always been alone, an outsider, watching your triumphs I do not ask for anything ..perhaps that was the problem. I am life's deterioration in full view. Someone said to me... Nothing left hidden "We are better than you in everything." My response "No doubt". The difference is that "thought" alone he had, would have never entered my soul. I do not care the path one walks but I do respect. What lovely words from a family of 4. Too much of right, break, got my back up. They all win, you all win! Gave up long ago. How tired I am from the battles within. Wasted words, diary of my time. Think of me when you have troubles. Surrounded by nothing but my dust, fighting the demons, losing at every moment. A knot in the shadows, rather the stormy seas, deep breath. Your lips were all I needed, how things fade. Expectation Is "one" living for themselves, truly? Old Love - Long distance calling.