What You Say

All I ever wanted and all I ever had were never the same
I tried my best to be perfect
Trying to be what they wanted and playing their stupid game

I gave and I gave until I had nothing left inside of me
I tried so hard to make them proud
Just wasted efforts because they never cared to see

Instead they pointed fingers and judged me for flaws created in their head
Smiling in my face 
While everyone judged me for the rumors that they spread

No matter what I conquered and despite all that I achieved
Never once was it good enough 
And I remained this person that they all believed

I worked my hands to the bone struggling day by day 
I worked so hard to be my best 
But they still only had bad things to say

Not once did they ever see the truth or tell me they were proud
As if I were invisible 
The outcast who stood out in the crowd

They never saw the failure in the others but expected some from me
Nothing ever made that change
One day I stopped trying to become what I’d never be

Tired of feeling ashamed for the lies that they would say
Eventually I gave up trying to please them
Knowing that it would always be this way

They never took the time to see me for who I was or who I had become
Instead they judged and looked down at me
Permanently labeling me for my past mistakes which I had done 

To them  I’d  never amount to anything more 
So I finally gave up trying 
They were supposed to build me up but knocked me to the floor

Too busy making accusations of things that they had no clue
Assuming this or that
Spreading rumors about me so everyone believed the lies were true 

I stopped and told myself to simply walk away
I realized It didn’t matter 
Because I am proud of the person that I am today

So to those of you who see me as someone weak or flawed u couldn’t be more wrong
I am someone special 
And I am someone strong 

No longer will I allow your judgments to hold me back from what I deserve and need
I refuse to give you power over me 
Without you setting me up for failure I will succeed

You weren’t there when I needed you and you waited for me to fail when I got to the top
I no longer will be your victim 
From this day on it will stop

So go ahead and spread your lies if it makes you feel better inside
Think what you wish of me 
Anyone who truely knows me will know that you lied

No longer will I allow myself to let it affect me or care what others think or say 
Come up with something more clever to say next time 
I refuse to stoop to your level and for you I shall pray

When I look into the mirror upon my reflection I see the person I became
What do you see staring at u
Do u see someone real or do you see your shame
Copyright © | Year Posted 2018

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