Wasn'T Born Gorgeous

I wasn't born gorgeous I just learned to soak up the ways in which not to be afraid of my own image I look back at old photographs my reflection never did look pleasing It's funny back than I thought I was fine I'd stay up late wondering why people would criticize me Yet here I find myself critiquing the same photo Of a distant former version of me Back than I didn't have these eyes I didn't have this sense of fitting the worlds image of perfection Back than I thought I was fine But i'd never been more wrong according to my new self concious self I wasn't aware back than what made the world tick I wasn't aware that people's stares would never be at me At least not how I was before not this image that I saw Than I never got how currupted the world could get The devil hadn't yet touched my innocence He hadn't yet tainted my version of the truth made me see that all they wanted was beautiful I wasn't born gorgerous I'm merely a mutation of my former self Changed to survive But sliced and diced on the inside so I could never forget How this good world works I compromised I swam in an ocean of lies Just to come out what I thought everyone wanted Do you see what I gave up to belong in this insane assylum I gave up the person I loved To become a person I loath All for their approval I was never born gorgeous I was born different but I conformed Into the norm