Warren

A guilty secret kept within, Hurt but show no pain. Losing out to someone else, Carry on the game. Trying all to make things right, Neglecting all i wish. Taking risks in pleasing others , Passing what i miss. Saying inside i just dont care, Knowing that i do. Why do i have to feel so much, So much more than you. If only i had answers to the questions in my head, In hindsight i would change so many things that i have said. I sit here slowly getting drunk, Do i really give a damn ? The problem is i know i do, Before i would of ran. "Just live life from day to day" i tell to those that ask, A hypocrite is what i am, A man within a mask. You read these words with sympathy and look at me with pain, Thinking you relate to me , But no one is the same. Everyone has had their hurt, Dont think i cannot see. All these feelings in my soul, Its here i hate to be. All i long for, All i want , Is a day when i can smile. Close my eyes contented, All is right for all the while. I know inside this day will come, In later life or near. Everyday im waiting, Every setback building fear. I long to talk with someone who i know will understand, But i dont think such a person can exist in all the land. I sometimes glimpse a happiness ive had, But not the same. The happiness im longing for to take away my pain. All the times i've given in and felt nothing but rain, I know one day i'll get there, For now i'll carry on the game.