Urge Episode 4

i feel a stimulation. hint to do something bad. i have a horny nature that drives me crazy from time to time. it consumes me and drives out the worse out of me. it makes me mad but yet am not mad enough to let go of it. it became my world and something i cannot do without, i hear my conscience but i do it out of lust. it consumes me, it reduse me. makes less of me. but then am afraid i might be comfortable with it. i prayed. evade but once a while it kept making me less of me. it leaves a stain of stink in me and i smell to myself. i hate myself.But everwhere i go i see myself, i can't do without muself so i hate everything. #urge episode 4