Tryna Embrace Me

I'm trying to find that girl Those eyes The one who saw it all but never got I dreamed I could be the girls that I saw The ones whose lives seem to have it all So I changed and rearranged Until I was a mirror image of them I thought I could hide the pain that they cause behind closed doors So I sat and pretended it didn't hurt and the scars mended At least I thought it did Now i'm finding that the grass is worse And my feelings still get hurt on this side I want out... I'm trying to embrace me. The old person that I used to be. I'm tired of all this attention. I want to go back to when they didn't listen. I just want to be hidden away, Somewhere safe from the person i've become. I'm tired of pleasing everyone Feeding this hunger I wanna go under and come back someone else... As I stare into the mirror my reflection brings me a smile Cause I like the appearance but I don't like how I feel Empty I used to wonder how people with so much power could want to give it up But now I see I'm losing parts of me I'm really conflicted... I dispise the new me, yet the old me dispises what i've become I reach out and touch her hand She's still there A tear falls down my eyes As I try to embrace the old me She vanishes I'm alone