Trying To Buy Happiness
Been depressed lately so I reached out and got a counselor to help me reach out of my own diminishing thoughts
Been buying a lot lately because my girl said I never do anything for myself
So, I'm spoiling myself, so they don't find my flesh spoiled already
Today my life was worth $74.65
On a rainy day I stuck my tongue out and rain came down on my taste buds instead of falling from my eyes
And it was the first time I felt something in a long time
I go days on days being numb to life as of late
Waking up late and never trying to sleep in
My mood is in a rut
I never been this stuck
Slipping so far, I can't even hear the music anymore I'm trying to hang on for another day
Sometimes it's like people only see my ghost so they treat me like my feelings are invisible
No, I'm not doing good, no I can't do good, no I heard it from others
But I heard it from myself more
There has to be more
Drake said more life
But I'm seeing fewer chances and less days on the calendar
My life feels like it's in the wrong hands
So, I want to it, into my own hands just to say I'm in control
Losing control
Taking votes for my soul
The world looks so dull
And the rainbows are all black, and black is beautiful until it's all you see
Been depressed lately
p.s. hope this is not the last thing I see
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