Trust You

I can see the light beyond the clouds I can see rain beyond these drought I can see blessings of all sorts Still i want to cling to the pain beneath them I want to overlook all your deeds and all your faults And again get on that train But its hurting The fact that you think you don't like me anymore Its hurting The fact that you gave up the second we got hit by some misunderstandings Its hurting And this time, I don't feel like clinging anymore I always walked 80% of the road And you kept hesitating I saw all the red flags but ignored them as we were dating Clarity was something i always prioritiesed But for you, even that i left fading But over the pain that past caused you You kept dreading And questioning every step you took towards me You said you wanted it to flow but how was that outta happen if your not ready to set yourself free Its been 3 weeks now and i feel that everything you said was in true You never felt even 10% of what i felt for you It have never happened that you like someone and that person didn't like you back, right? You said that with such an enormous pride That made me feel that i am just a dog following your ride And here i was thinking that all that time, you were by my side When you were actually saying "Its not just you , alright!" I was happy in my world , from you , I had moved on I never blamed you back then, was dancing on lifes song But this time, its possibility is zero You are amazing indead, you will find your hero And will remember my name only as a contact in your phone In my story you will be a chapter, in yours, i will just be an insignificant stepping stone Now, when i think about every memory we shared It feel like a lie Every line you said sounds so lifeless, so dry Now this mess is all over my floor I wish i should have guessed, for me, what was in the store Before writing "make it" i should have seen if you are sure Atleast from your dry reaction to it, i should have understood That you had no intentions to love me, i feel like your emotional food I try to analyse my importance in your life Its shameful that i have to compare I should have felt secure by the way you look at me, but you just never stare And now i feel stupid I got my ass hit by the same arrow twice, that cupid Its crazy that deep inside i still feel that you will come back That you will finally pull out our connection out of the dark sack But even if that happens how will i know that this time its true Even if you say it out loud in front of the world I don't know if I'll be able to bring myself to trust you ! I don't know if I'll be able to let you in Even when there is just one person i think about Just You