Trauma and Denial

When I was young, I was too good at hiding pain That's why they assumed I never hurt And they went on to throw more blows at me Cause that's how they were dealing with their pain I'd smile like the good boy I was Thinking that somehow I was doing good Only to realise year's later That it's left many scars that I can't just heal Now when I show some pain I'm seen a weaklin thats why they go as far as, saying that I caused it to myself Everyone washing their hands off me And they're the first to tell me to heal How can you heal if everytime you tell your story They make it seem like a made up story It's like they were blind for all my life And what hurts is how they create this picture Of how I owe people around me for my strength They've forgotten that I'm self taught No one showed me to look the other way when I get hit But I keep writing cause it hurts them Hurts them to see that what they've lived to know Was a lie they told themselves so that they sleep well When deep down they know they've never been there for me It's been me all along The PO£T