Tortured Tortoise

I ventured into us Without any outcome in mind I was content at the time Happiness was the bottom line Nothing could prepare me for this The fire was put out of our bliss How did we come to this Unbearable twist It is impossible to know That love once did exist Caught in the confusion and mist It is hard to forge any reasonable outcome Which way is the right way A clouded judgment could be detrimental It is so hard and my heart ache Lord why did you forsake Is it something I did in the past? Is something I miss at present? I can't see clearly My heart is too broken I'm teary eyed I was brave to suggest separation The truth is I am terrified I was dumb and bold But your grudge is just stone cold I tried to resuscitate a talk with you It was in vain All listening supply was cut off Spending my time in silence It feels to difficult It beats strained words to an unwilling ear In the past I never minded the odd behavior here and there But now protecting my interest will be my resolve Our disagreement seem to pile up It seems never solved It's way more than pride It hurts inside I have been through struggling This is internal suffering How long will I be subjecting myself to this hurt I was brave enough to embrace the fire It feels too late for me because I got burnt