Tortured Mind

Tortured Mind My mind holds such confusion Sadness fills my days Deep thoughts steal my sleep Dreams are nearly nonexistent Nobody knows what my mind can do Nobody understands what I feel How my feelings draw the life from me I cannot will myself to move My body is unfeeling Dead from years of torture and pain I have eyes that do not see beauty They have been blinded by a lack of emotion When in more than 50 years did this happen? What took my mind from me? I will suffer with my mind in hell Agonizing every minute of every day No pills to take No one to talk to My mind rots deep in another reality A reality with a million lost nightmares It lost its way It cannot come back to me This reality is alien to it I fight and fight to control it To have it make sense It never has It never will no matter how I try My mind and my life are hopeless Given up on decades ago Someday I will see a light A pathway from my mind’s private hell There is one problem My mind will never find relief Someday never comes