Too Lost

right now I can't manage I can't handle it either I'm living in hate it's giving me a fever Is this even healthy? Do I really even care? I throw myself around and tear out my hair I'm so lost and can't be found this has got me spinnin' round and round I'm lost in my own world I can't seem to find myself every time I look around I'm just sitting on the bottom shelf I'm a nobody wandering around searching for something wanting to be found but that's the real question Do I really want to be found? I'm not too sure I'm too dizzy from spinning around I'm lost in my own home and nobody understands I just lie down on my knees and hands I'm just lost and maybe I'll be found I first need to learn how to stop spinning around Is that the first thing? I am too angry to say maybe I'll try some new strategies to play