To Love You This Way

Is it a crime To feel for you as I do When it won’t do me or you any good We can’t be together Like opposing magnets We clash Impossible, yes But it is true that I’m desperate for what I cant have. I’ll watch behind closed doors Wishing I was outside with you But I’m locked up in this prison A punishment I pay For it is a crime to see you this way. I can dream about you forever But I dream in lies And eventually I’ll wake up to face this harsh reality. So just forget I exist Shouldn’t be hard Considering you will never look at me The way I see you I guess that’s a good thing Only a fool would love me And you, good sir, are no fool. You will live a happy life Smile that dazzling smile of yours And I pray that you will remember me as I once was Not as the monster I am now. I’d forget about you if I could I would be better off But I can’t forget you I don't want to forget something so beautiful My dear you will be the death of me Gnawing at the nerves making them fray Oh it is a crime to think of you this way. On my death bed Dying am i Without you with me Without you holding my hand Whipping gout this disease of the mind That’s destroying me now You gave me reason to live But like the rest of me your gone And I’m slowly wasting away It is a crime to live for you this way. I’ll await my destiny And it will be a drak fate But if I think of you And how it could have been It will be as if it were real As if you ever loved me And that’s all I needed. I wish I could have told you how I felt Just so you could see into my heart and know that I’m not a monster I should have followed my heart But that path leads to death So I’ll rip it out so I won’t hear what it has to say For it is a crime to love you this way.