three forty one AM

Not a single text. It's been 2 weeks. Tissues flooding mt room. All your promises lingering in my head. I hate you but why is it so hard to. How could i still love you. After you toss me away. For someone that wont stay. Self hatred washing over me. The voices in my head mocking me. I usually never dwell on the past. But you're slowly devouring my mind. Our memories creep up in my head. Temporary love, but a permanent scar. Sometimes i wondered if you actually valued me. You'd smile at me. But only if i smile first. You text me, But only if i text first.