Thoughts of Emotion

The thunderstorms lighting. I drive in it even though the rains coming down hard. I don't know why I'm driving in this kind of weather. I mean should I pull over? Should I try to see if I can handle the thunder storm of rain. My emotions are feeling sad. What can I do to let myself be happy. I drove near bridge. I wonder if I should floor it. I run off the road. No body will miss me. No body will care. If anything happens to me. I have my license in the car with my purse and wallet. I should reck my car. No one will ever now I'm dead. I look into the rain outside my car window. I have found the tears melting into my car window. I feel them being salty although I don't know how to control this. My emotions are going out of control. So I can run off the road. The rain comes down harder and harder. The thunder has me crying. So I ask myself can I handle the pain.