Thomas-Abortion 1

When I was 12 weeks pregnant my husband and I found out news News that would change our lives Shake our entire foundation. My first son my loved Wanted Long-waited for child had local exstrophy During what we thought was a routine checkup We found out that his lower abdominal wall had not formed correctly He had a mass as big as his head between his little legs In the ultrasound I could barely see his legs because of it His tiny feet were already clubbed His spinal cord was tethered The doctor told us he would never walk or have a functioning bladder A week later The situation worsened We found out his kidneys weren’t working His lungs wouldn’t develop After eagerly preparing for our first son My husband and I Found out he would die by suffocation upon delivery If he survived that long Faced with horrible and difficult odds My husband and I did what we knew What was best for our son Our family We made the decision to end the pregnancy through abortion My husband and I loved our first son and wanted him dearly We named him Thomas I will forever mourn him The decision to have an abortion challenged my beliefs around life My faith But I have never for a second doubted This was the right thing to do for myself My family Especially Thomas 06122020