This Was a Close One

I can't believe I was such a fool, I fell for those adorable eyes. I can't believe theres someone else, i guess the caring i saw was just the start of your lies. But you did'nt get me hooked, I did'nt waste to much of my time. It all happened so fast, Thank God- I would of sdoon felt you were mine. I'll admit it hurts alittle, I mean I thought it might might work. But there can't be two of us, only one, and I'm not gonna be the jerk. Maybe you did'nt intentionally lead me on, i don't know. You dont look like that kind of guy. But yet I know for a fact that looks can decieve, i guess I just want someone by my side. I'm very confused again, I mean, I feel really alone. I know I have my friends but I want to hear I care in a promising tone. Maybe it was'nt to soon, I do have feelings for you deep down inside. I don't know what to do, I just hope they are easy to hide. I want someone to care, not like a friend, something more. I need someone who I can believe in, someone who makes me feel secure. I want a relationship, no acting, we could of had it all. I want someone whose gonna love me forever, and be there should I ever fall. I guess theres nothing I can do, At least I can say I tried. I'd still like to know you're a friend standing by my side. We still have eternity...... Written on 12/18/1980